This is so true, Every single one.

1. Guys may be flirting around all day, but before they go to sleep, they always think about the girl they truly care about....

2. Guys are more emotional than you think, if they loved you at one point, it'll take them a lot longer than you think to let you go, and it hurts every second that they try.

3. Guys go crazy over a girl's smile.

4. A guy who likes you wants to be the only guy you talk to.

5. Boyfriends need to be reassured often that they're still loved.

6. Guys don't care how gorgeous you are.

7. Giving a guy a hanging message like "You know what?..uh...nevermind.." would make him jump to a conclusion that is far from what you are thinking. And he'll assume he did something wrong and he'll obsess about it trying to figure it out.

8. If a guy tells you about his problems, he just needs someone to listen to him. You don't need to give advice.

9. A usual act that proves that the guy likes you is when he teases you.

10. Guys love you more than you love them

11. Guys use words like hot or cute to describe girls. They rarely use beautiful or gorgeous. If a guy uses that, he loves you or likes you a whole heck of a lot.

12. No matter how much guys talk about whats on the outside,personality is the key.

13. Guys think WAY too much. One small thing a girl does, even if she doesn't notice it can make the guy think about it for hours, trying to figure out what it meant but some know that it was just probably nothing so if it is supposed to mean something then make that meaning noticeable so that they can react on the spot.

14. If the guy does something stupid in front of the girl, he will think about it for the next couple days or until the next time he spends time with the girl.

15.If a guy looks unusually calm and laid back, he's probably faking it and he is really thinking about something.

16. When a guy says he is going crazy about the girl, he really is. Guys rarely say that.

17.When a guy asks you to leave him alone, he's just actually saying, "Please come and listen to me".

18. If a guy starts to talk seriously, listen to him. It doesn't happen that often, so when it does, you know something's up.

19. When a guy looks at you for longer than a second, he's definitely thinking something.

20. Guys really think that girls are strange and have unpredictable decisions and are MAD confusing but somehow are drawn even more to them.

21. No guy can handle all his problems on his own. He's just too stubborn to admit it.

22.NOT ALL GUYS ARE JACKASSES. Just because ONE is a jackass doesnt mean he represents ALL of them

23.When a guy sacrifices his sleep and health just to be with you, he really likes you and wants to be with you as much as possible.

24.Even if you dump a guy months ago and he loved you he probably still does and if he had one wish it would be you to come back into his life.

2010

2009 was the craziest year so far...

I shudder to think what 2010 would bring me.

New friends?

New situations?

Some I'm looking forward to.

Other's I'm just dreading.

Well, just know that I won't be making any new year's resolutions this time.

Maybe just one.

And it's to be more sensitive to others.

Oh and maybe to be able to actually save money.

On the way down, I saw You.

Sick and Tired of this world

There's no more air

Trippin' over myself

Goin' nowhere

Waiting

Suffocating

No direction

And I took a dive

And on the way down

I saw you

And you saved me

From myself

And I won't forget

The way you loved me

On the way down

I almost fell right through

But I held onto you

I've been wondering why

It's only me

Have you always been inside

Waiting to breathe

It's alright

Sunlight

On my face

I wake up and yeah, I'm alive

I was so afraid

Of going under

But now

The weight of the world

Feels like nothing, no, nothing

Down, down, down

You're all I wanted

Down, down, down

You're all I needed

Down, down, down

You're all I wanted

You're all I needed

And I won't forget the way you loved me

All that I wanted

All that I needed

Down, down, down

But I held onto you

Down, down, down

But I held onto you

On the verge of a breakdown,

you saved me.

I'm sorry I'm not who you want me to be.

Quiz thingy.

I was tagged by Baini to do this quiz. Here goes...

1. Are you single?
A: Yeap.

2. Are you happy?
A: Yea, you can say so.

3. Are you bored?
A: Very.

4. Are you fair?
A: No.

5. Are you indian?
A: No.

6. Are you stupid?
A:No.

7. Are you honest?
A: Depends.

8. Are you irish?
A: No.

9. Are you nice?
A: Definitely.

10.Are you asian?
A: Duhzzz.

Ten facts.
Full name: Arthur Phua ___ ___
Nickname: Turtle (Thur thur)
Birthplace: Selangor
Hair colour: Brownish Black.
Hair style: Punk (Not ah beng-ish)
Eye colour: Black
DOB: 21st December 1991
Mood: Cranky
Favourite colour: Black
One place you wished to visit: New York City.


This or That.
Love or lust: Love.
Cats or dogs: Cats.
Best friends or regular friends: Best friends.
Creamy or crunchy: Crunchy.
Pencil or pen: Pen.
Wild night out or romantic in: Romantic in.
Money or happiness: Happiness.
Night or day: Night.
IM or phone: IM


Have you ever.
Been caught sneaking out: Yes.
Seen a polar bear: Yeah.
Done something you regret: Yea.
Jumpin: Yeah, at least once a week.
Eat an entire Jaw breaker?: Dunno.
Been caught naked: Err, no?
Wanted gf back?: Never had one.
Cried because lost a person forever: No.
Wanted to disappear: Too many times.


Preference of love.
Smile or eyes: Can I choose both?
Light or dark hair: Dark.
Hugs or kisses: Hugs.
Shorter or taller: Shorter :P
Intelligence or attraction: Have a fairly good amount of both qualities.
Violent or pathetic: Ehhh, both are too extremes, I'm not choosing.
Older or younger: Younger.
Outgoing or quiet: Depending on occasion.
Sweet or bad: Sweet!!

I won't tag anyone to do this quiz.

Shout,

Shout!

If the devil shouts at you,

Shout back even more aggressively.

Don't let anyone steal your shout.

This is so true, even though it's a Facebook thing.

Recap

I totally forgot how it went down during media fast.

I only remember the big events.

180 was awesome! Great dance performance, great worship. Though I had to do ushering duty zzz.

Had Astons dinner. Black pepper chicken!

Went gyming with Joshua Ong and Yan Han the next day.

Had lunch at Astons(again), without Joshua but Andes joined us.

Had beef this time.

Edge conference.

A powerful life changing 3 days dedicated to God.

Had lots of fun.

The T-shirts rock!

Worship was off the hook.

The preachers were full of anointing!

The workshops were power packed.

I did ushering for one of the nights and my did I enjoy myself that night.

Ushering is so fun at youth services.

Had to stay back to tear down after the whole conference.

Term tests are over!

Today was my last paper!

Came home to eat lunch before heading out to Lynette and Lavette's house to chill(melt).

Had a good time I guess.

Well I'm just glad things are kinda stabilized now ;)

Be on your guard.

Everyone, remember that the devil attacks the moment you are spiritually 'up'.

Do be cautious, my friends, do not waiver.

1 Corinthians 13

Love

¹If I speak in the tongues of men and of angels, but have not love, I am only a resounding gong or a clanging cymbal. ²If I have the gift of prophecy and can fathom all mysteries and all knowledge, and if I have a faith that can move mountains, but have not love, I am nothing. ³If I give all I possess to the poor and surrender my body to the flames, but have not love, I gain nothing.

⁴Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. ⁵It is not rude, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. ⁶Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. ⁷It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres.

⁸Love never fails. But where there are prophecies, they will cease; where there are tongues, they will be stilled; where there is knowledge, it will pass away. ⁹For we know in part and we prophesy in part, ¹⁰but when perfection comes, the imperfect disappears. ¹¹When I was a child, I talked like a child, I thought like a child, I reasoned like a child. When I became a man, I put childish ways behind me. ¹²Now we see but a poor reflection as in a mirror; then we shall see face to face. Now I know in part; then I shall know fully, even as I am fully known.

¹³And now these three remain: faith, hope and love. But the greatest of these is love.

Ephesians 5

¹Be imitators of God, therefore, as dearly loved children ²and live a life of love, just as Christ loved us and gave himself up for us as a fragrant offering and sacrifice to God.

³But among you there must not be even a hint of sexual immorality, or of any kind of impurity, or of greed, because these are improper for God's holy people. ⁴Nor should there be obscenity, foolish talk or coarse joking, which are out of place, but rather thanksgiving. ⁵For of this you can be sure: No immoral, impure or greedy person—such a man is an idolater—has any inheritance in the kingdom of Christ and of God.⁶Let no one deceive you with empty words, for because of such things God's wrath comes on those who are disobedient. ⁷Therefore do not be partners with them.

⁸For you were once darkness, but now you are light in the Lord. Live as children of light ⁹(for the fruit of the light consists in all goodness, righteousness and truth) ¹⁰and find out what pleases the Lord. ¹¹Have nothing to do with the fruitless deeds of darkness, but rather expose them. ¹²For it is shameful even to mention what the disobedient do in secret. ¹³But everything exposed by the light becomes visible, ¹⁴for it is light that makes everything visible. This is why it is said:
"Wake up, O sleeper,
rise from the dead,
and Christ will shine on you."

¹⁵Be very careful, then, how you live—not as unwise but as wise, ¹⁶making the most of every opportunity, because the days are evil. ¹⁷Therefore do not be foolish, but understand what the Lord's will is. ¹⁸Do not get drunk on wine, which leads to debauchery. Instead, be filled with the Spirit. ¹⁹Speak to one another with psalms, hymns and spiritual songs. Sing and make music in your heart to the Lord, ²⁰always giving thanks to God the Father for everything, in the name of our Lord Jesus Christ.

²¹Submit to one another out of reverence for Christ.

But when you are tempted, he will also provide a way out so that you can stand up under it – 1Cor10:13

Everything tastes bitter

Goodbye.

Help me...

It's like a whirlwind inside my head.

No feelings.

No emotions.

I'm just numb to everything around.

To all you haters out there :

Don't judge me unless you know me.

You're either a friend, or a stranger.

I don't make enemies.

The day I thought I'd never get through,

I got over you

How I love you

How my soul longs for you

To be with you

Adore you

Nothing more i want to do

Than to sing to you

Is it possible

To be best friends but of different cliques?

Go away.

Leave me ALONE.

I guess

Love is the only thing we live in this world for.

Sweet Memories

Emotions never felt before

Well,

It's almost been a year since that fateful day.

Many things have happened.

Cousin's gone to Uni.

Stanley joined the youth ministry.

I finally made it into the regional and the edge worship ministry.

I guess, we've all moved on.

And are all looking forward to that day where we'll see you in heaven.

Wow, it's been a year.

It sure didn't seem that long.

But I guess, I'll miss your presence a lot.

Hope the past year in heaven has been enjoyable.

To eternity (:

A repeat of the post dated 15th October 2008.

Ok, so what we feared the most has finally come to past.
The news came as we were on the way home to Singapore earlier today.
I'm guessing that dad's mind must have been in a whirl the moment he heard the news.
It also made the trip up to Malaysia worthwhile.
At least we got to spend time with him in his final days.
All the suffering has finally left him for good.
He's with God now, rejoicing in heaven with the angels.
He got saved about 3 years back I think.
I'm not too sure about the details, I was just glad that he finally gave his life to Christ.
I don't think that I have appreciated him enough during his time on earth.
He was a good man, always looking out for the family, and making tough choices for us.
He used to cross highways the way we cross normal roads just to get to the market and buy breakfast back for all of us, despite his age.
He walked slowly, but he always made it back safely, by God's grace.
Even when he's hearing became weaker, he still continued to buy breakfast for everyone, walking the 1km+ to the market every morning.
When his vision became impaired, he still continued to do the same, all out of love.
But what did I do?
I complained the food wasn't nice, Singapore's breakfast is better.
I didn't respond when he spoke to me.
I didn't bother to learn Cantonese to communicate with him.
I didn't spend enough time with him, thats for sure.
Every time I went up to Malaysia to visit him and my relatives, he would give me $50 SGD to spend, saying that I was too skinny and needed to eat more.
Yes, I spent the money eating, but I took the money for granted and always expected him to give and give.
Throughout the time spent in Malaysia this time, I felt such a strong feeling of sadness, as I realised that this was the man who used to look after me since I was a baby.
He was the one who watched me grow up and always did what was best for me.
He was the one who always rejoiced and smiled every time he saw me.
And not once have I appreciated him for that.
Like they say, you never know what you got till its gone.
And now, all I can do is hold back the tears and be strong.
While this phrase keeps ringing in my head.

All of my life
In every season
You are still God
I have a reason to sing
I have a reason to worship

Because I know that he's finally out of the pain and suffering, and I can rejoice in this situation because I know that he's with our Father in heaven.
In every season, He is still God, He will never fail, He has a plan.
Even when Grandpa's gone, life still has to move on, we can't mourn forever.
We can look forward to the day when we meet with him in heaven.
Till then, we will carry on living for God, because He will never fail us.

Thank you everybody for showing so much support to me and my family.
I really appreciate it.
Do keep the family in prayer.
And may God help us to be strong.

Will you miss me if I leave?

So many things coming.

So many bad and horrible things.

It's one storm after another.

A typhoon, then a tornado, followed by a hurricane, and then a whirlwind.

I feel like I'm being tossed about, and there's nothing I can do.

I wanna run away.

Take refuge till the storms blow over.

I don't think I'll have the strength to face any storm head on.

I've grown so tired.

The only thing keeping me alive is....

ღloveღ

Wow

Proverbs 14:29
A patient man has great understanding,
but a quick-tempered man displays folly.

Matthew 7:1-5
Judge not, that you be not judged. For with the judgment you pronounce you will be judged, and with the measure you use it will be measured to you. Why do you see the speck that is in your brother's eye, but do not notice the log that is in your own eye? Or how can you say to your brother, ‘Let me take the speck out of your eye,’ when there is the log in your own eye? You hypocrite, first take the log out of your own eye, and then you will see clearly to take the speck out of your brother's eye.

I need to take refuge...

And I realised,

That I was after something too far fetched.
It was impossible.
Now I'm back at square one.
Trying to find a reason to love again.

How I lie.

You lie inside your head. Your thoughts confuse you, and you would rather be anyone else than yourself. You convince yourself of things that aren't true. You might think you are ugly, stupid, mean, or annoying, when you are actually none of those things. You constantly put yourself down and convince yourself that you don't deserve anything good. You don't hear compliments and when people give you one, you deny it. You give others the compliments you wish you could give yourself, but when you think of who you are, only the negative comes to mind. It is possible you are paranoid about what others are saying about you behind your back, or are trying to match yourself to an impossible standard. There might have been someone in your life who put you down so much you actually started to believe it. Trust me, if you think you are a bad person, you most likely aren't. Bad people think they are good, otherwise they wouldn't be as mean.

You lie because you mistake it for the truth. When others tell you positive things about yourself, you often just believe they are lying to make you feel better. In actuality, they are telling the truth and you are lying to yourself. Your weakness are the people who don't openly compliment you, but truly believe you are amazing anyway. Their compliments are along the lines of "You make me feel happy" or "You are my everything." A lot of people find these cheesy, but these are the compliments that allow you to feel good about yourself for who you are. When people tell you good things about themselves and tell you it's all because of you, the dark lies you tell yourself seem to float away.

Exactly. Accurate to the max.

INFP - The Idealist

You are a special and sensitive individual that needs a career which is more than just a job. You need to feel that what you do everyday has special meaning and can live your life in accordance to your strong value system. You are focused on constant growth and have a positive outlook on life. Because you are driven to do find meaning and purpose in your work, you will be happiest in careers where you are allowed to work towards those values you hold and towards the greater good of humanity as a whole. Many of the great writers of the world have been INFPs.

Some of your personality traits include:

* Strong value systems
* Warmly interested in people
* Service-oriented, usually putting the needs of others above your own
* Loyal and devoted to people and causes
* Future-oriented
* Growth-oriented; always want to be growing in a positive direction
* Creative and inspirational
* Flexible and laid-back, unless a ruling principle is violated
* Sensitive and complex
* Dislike dealing with details and routine work
* Original and individualistic - "out of the mainstream"
* Excellent written communication skills
* Prefer to work alone, and may have problems working on teams
* Value deep and authentic relationships
* Want to be seen and appreciated for who you are

Some of your suggested careers are:

* Writer
* Counselor / Social Worker
* Teacher / Professor
* Psychologist
* Psychiatrist
* Musician
* Clergy / Religious Workers

My life's nothing without you.

Cannons

All glory, honor, power is Yours forever amen.

Contemplator

You are likely a deep thinker who likes to go inside your own head. You are likely more intelligent than the average person, and possess a need to retreat to your own "think zone" in order to recharge. You might not always speak your thoughts even thought you know you know the answer. Instead you wait for someone to ask you what your thoughts are.

So close,

So close to becoming who I was before.

I'm scared.

See the diversity...

Love

Arthur got a message that on this day, God wants him to know...
... that it's OK.

Just rest for a moment. It's OK. Yes, things are crazy, yes, the world is going nuts. Yet, deep underneath the stormy waves, there, in the core of your being, there is pure silence, pure love. And ... it's ... just ... OK.

I guess,

I shouldn't have put so much trust in you.

So come home running,

So come home running

His arms are open wide

His name is Jesus

He understands

He is the answer

You are looking for

So come home running

Just as you are

Isaiah 43

The Savior of Israel

1 But now, O Jacob, listen to the Lord who created you.
O Israel, the one who formed you says,
“Do not be afraid, for I have ransomed you.
I have called you by name; you are mine.

2 When you go through deep waters,
I will be with you.
When you go through rivers of difficulty,
you will not drown.
When you walk through the fire of oppression,
you will not be burned up;
the flames will not consume you.

3 For I am the Lord, your God,
the Holy One of Israel, your Savior.
I gave Egypt as a ransom for your freedom;
I gave Ethiopia and Seba in your place.

A few thanks I have to express here :

1. Wendy Goh, for not giving up on me.

2. David Lim, for being a great friend.

3. Esther Lim, for comforting me when I wept.

4. Andes Tan, Evelyn Pek, Lavette Chua, James Pek, Pamela Quek for just being my friend and sticking with me though I may be a jerk at times.

5. My dear net, JJ, Marcia and Pin Xuan for always being so supportive.

6. My brother, Stanley, for always understanding me.

Thank you so much, my dear friends.

Thanks for not giving up on me.

Thanks for all the counsel.

I love you all.

Let's take what hurts, and write it all down.
On these paper walls, and this empty house.
And when our ink runs out, we'll burn it to the ground.

Way away

Away from here I'll be.

Beyond.

You promised the lost will return to You

You said that all will bow down to You

Lord I believe

I give my heart and my soul to You

I lay my life down for You to use

I trust in You

Lord let me see

Beyond all I believe

Use my hands and feet

Use me for Your glory

Open my eyes to see Your plan

Place within me this dream where the lost return to You

I want to see beyond all I ever knew

To see the lost come back to You

Through the trials and pain

I will still stand

I will call Your Name

My life in Your hands

This was the song that was ringing through my head this whole day today.

About missions, about wanting to see people getting saved.

I want to sing this song not with my tongue, but with my life.

I want to see the promise that God has in store.

I want to see it come through, I want to be a part of it.

God change me.

Save my soul, save my heart, save my mind.

I'm running after You.

Worshipping You in spirit and in truth.

My life is in your hands, take me.

I like the lyrics of this song alot! And it's a really cute song as well!

"Every Little Thing"

I saw her yesterday
And I never felt a feeling like the one I felt today
And now she's taking over me
I've never met anyone like you
Cause I never could find the words to write you

She's been on my mind (she's working overtime)
She's got perfect reasons
Says she loves to talk to Jesus
I think I believe her when she says
Life can be so simple if we'd all just learn to pray

She's got every little thing I wanted
And it still feels just like the day it started
I'll say goodbye to the broken-hearted
And I could never express the way I felt before tonight

She sits there all alone
She's reading from a chapter that she sometimes calls her own
And now she's taken over me
This girl I once rejected
Has now become the girl of my dreams

She's got every little thing I wanted
And it still feels just like the day it started
I'll say goodbye to the broken-hearted
And I could never express the way I felt before tonight

She's not an ordinary girl
I see it in her eyes
I'm just an ordinary boy
God must have heard my prayers last night

She's been on my mind (she's working overtime)
She's got perfect reasons, says she loves to talk to Jesus
I think I believe her when she says
Life can be so simple if we'd all just learn to pray

Every little thing I wanted
And it still feels just like the day it started
So say goodbye to the broken-hearted
And I could never express the way I felt before tonight

She's not an ordinary girl
I can see it in her eyes
I'm just an ordinary boy
God must have heard my prayers last night

Sundays are ♥

Well, I just wanted to say that I love Sundays.
All the good stuff happens on Sundays.
Worship duty, uhsering duty.
Foundations.
And lunch with church mates!
Going to tampines early to slack.
Guitaring, playing cards, hanging out.
Bubble tea, cheese fries, onion rings.
Evening service.

How I wish everyday could be like this.

Just love all the church stuff.
Monday : Nothing.
Tuesday : Caregroup
Wednesday : Prayer meeting
Thursday : Nothing
Friday : Net group!
Saturday : Edge!
Sunday : Best day ever!

So yeah, I love the busy feeling!
And now that school's coming to a close,
I can finally be able to attend every one of these meetings and stuff!
How awesome is that?!
_______________________________________________

Another question now, is me learning electric guitar.
Learn from Academy of Rock, or from our church's very own Joel Tan (5/6)?
I shall, pray about it.

Passion

Though I screwed up my WWNK paper today.
I thank God for my friends, and God himself.

I had a good time at net, and my anxiety began to fade as I was sharing the net lesson.

Though I left the examination room feeling disappointed,

with a God like this, and these few good friends, I feel like a winner.

I'm delivered.

Like the prodigal son
I was out on my own,
now I'm trying to find my way back home.
Baptized in the river,
I'm delivered.

Spice up my life! =D

Argh! Everyday has been so boring and mundane!
I need someone to light up my life!
Or spice it up!
I need some fun!
Instead of studying all the way....
People tell me that, I need....















A girlfriend.
LOL!

Take me

Can you hear me? Does anyone around me
Feel the way that I feel now?
Cause from the window where I sometimes cry
I just want to see Your face tonight
And I'm willing to lose everything I am

Cause I need you more than ever
I need Your help to find where I've been going wrong so far

Take me under Your wing tonight
Make me so perfect in Your eyes
Hold on cause it will be alright
You're not alone.

When You're near me, I feel like I just found me
In the traces of the boy from yesterday
But in a world that is so black and white
I will take the steps to change my life
And I won't be coming back to here again

I need Your loving hand to guide me
Through the maze of all the things inside me
Then I'll know that I'm alright

Cause I need You more than ever
I need Your help to find where I've been going wrong so far

Take me under Your wing tonight
Make me so perfect in Your eyes
Hold on cause it will be alright
You're not alone
Please help me get from worse to better
Before these tears soak through this lonely sweater
And let me know that I'm alright
I still have one strike of this match left
And I'm holding on to my last breath
And its getting a little dark around to see here

Take me under Your wing tonight
Make me so perfect in your eyes
Hold on cause it will be alright
You're not alone

And You'll be here forever, forever You'll stay
And You promised to love me, You'll love me always
You'll love me for always, You'll love me for always
Always

=)

Well basically this week has been and will continue to be presentations, presentations, presentations.
Wore formal yesterday, today and gonna wear formal this friday as well.
Exams coming up NEXT friday.
Quite okay.
Just gotta study!
Chat with James was real good today.
Really nice to chat with someone, about random stuff and I think I've never chatted so comfortably with anyone else before.
Thanks buddy!
All the best for YOUR OWN presentation tomorrow!

National Day!

I didn't do any national day thing this year.
Except for the fact that I wore red!
Went to morning service, went home and slept, woke up, had dinner, went to watch G.I Joe.
Boring afternoon right?
The morning and night time was great.
Faster I'm counting down to the end of school...
I can't take all this nonsense and bullshit anymore.
Ah, whatever, haha.

Muffin outreach!

It was really good, though no visitors, we enjoyed ourselves, a great time of net bonding.
We talked laughed, watched drama serials, ate muffins, had root beer float!
And not to mention all the unglam photos.
Wish all net group meetings can be as fun, but no, we gotta work towards the goal of multiplying again!

Tiring.

28 days to freedom.

CMSK presentation on Monday.

Should be quite okay.

No school this Wednesday! =D

Can't go caregroup this Tuesday... =(

Net outreach was great!

Though no visitors, it was a great time of net bonding!

Photos soon on FB (MARCIA FASTER UPLOAD!)

Edge was awesome today!

Charissa Seaward preached!

Really good message.

Very tired.

Shall head to bed soon.

28 more days, tahan tahan.

Been getting constant headaches these few days....

Pray for me!

Hahahaha

Ok I have nothing better to do.
Dad's flying off in a few hours time.
Waiting for next class to start.
Lalalalalala.
Bored =\
Trying to be happy.
Laughing like siao in class.
Hyenas FTW!
zzzzzzZZZZZZZZ!

Yesterday, went to school, begged my parents to let me go to Evie's surprise thingy.
James came to my school and played CS with my coursemates!
Super funny!
Went to meet Evelyn and Andes at Tamp 1 later on.
Went for dinner.
Lavette joined us there.
Looked around for a cake for evie.
Ran after shuttle bus to IKEA.
Stopped by GIANT to look for party poppers.
Didn't find any.
Went to IKEA and waited.
Finally we hear the announcement,
"Dear customers, we have a lost 5 year old named Evie, dressed in a black jacket and red shirt. Please bring to the exit if found."
Waited at the exit.
Surprised her there.
Sang the birthday song twice in English, once in Chinese.
Prayed over her, took a photo.
And I left cos of the accursed curfew.
Took 27 back with Evelyn.
Bus super packed.
Thought about ALOT of things after alighting from the bus.
Wishing my holidays would just come sooner.
I need the break.
I wanna have fun! =)

Turn,

Turn you eyes upon Jesus,
Look full in His wonderful face
And the things of earth will grow strangely dim
In the light of His glory and grace.

Well, how's it been?
It's been ok-ok.
Can be better.
I realised that it's just a matter of perspective.
And a test of your faith in God.
And sad to say, I failed that test.
In my impatience and intolerance I've hurt so many others.
Right now all I ask, is for forgiveness.
From everyone who I've hurt during this time.
I'm sorry.
I really am.

I'm sorry for the person I became.
I'm sorry that it took so long for me to change.
I'm ready to be sure I never become that way again
'cause who I am hates who I've been.

God, please help.

"Footprints In The Sand"

You walked with me
Footprints in the sand
And helped me understand
Where I'm going

You walked with me
When I was all alone
With so much unknown
Along the way

And just when I
I thought I'd lost my way
You gave me strength to carry on
That's when I heard you say

I promise you
I'm always there
When your heart is filled with sorrow
And despair

And I'll carry you
When you need a friend
You'll find my footprints in the sand
When I'm weary
Well I know you'll be there
Cause I can feel you
When you say

I see my life flash across the sky

So many times have I been so afraid

And just when I have thought I lost my way

You give me strength to carry on

That's when I heard you say

It's been stressful...

I've been beaten down, I'm feeling down, tired and weary.
Emotionally drained.
Physically drained.
Spiritually drained.
I keep telling myself, just 1 more month to freedom.
But will I last that long?
I'm hope so.

Retro Fever~

It was good.

Really good.

Fun, funny, cool, crazy!

Went shopping for the outfits on Saturday.

Supposed to be studying, but yeah. =D

Worship was crazily off the hook!

Best sound system, best worship ever!

~Church on fire~

Didn't take many photos cos didn't wanna make Nicholas and Melvyn feel left out.

Melvyn got saved!

Great decision pal!

Dance item was good!

Best dressed!

Niceeee~~

Worse part was, I didn't take photo with sister! D=

Haha but took many photos with my mafia.

James the Mafia boss.

JJ the bodyguard.

Andes the Italian gangster.

Johnathon the big guy in a trenchcoat!

Lavette and Evelyn the... uhm...

No idea!

Haha!

Well but it was really really really fun.

For all those who missed it, all I have to say is....

You should have been there!

Swimming~~

Swimming with James today was good.
Managed 15 laps.
Backache after that.
Met Melvin and Vincent at the swimming pool.
Had a good chat there.
Introduced James to them.
Assignments piling up.
Stress coming in like never before.
The 4 hours of study thing is MUCH harder than I thought.
I feel like dying.
Too tiring.
Evangelism, Retro Fever and stuff coming up.
Will I be able to enjoy it to the fullest?
Or am I gonna let all this pull me down?
God give me strength.
To continue to place you in my highest priority.
Though studies and family are important.
I want to be able to put you first,
Even in the busiest of times.
Amen.

Suppose that I missed you
Suppose that I care
Suppose that I spent all my nights running scared
Suppose that I was never there

Psychology Personality Assessment

This was what my psychology class evaluated.

I'm both INFP and INTP

INFP / INTP (Introvert, Intuitive, Thinker/Feeler, Perceiver)

INFP : Idealist

-Quiet, reflective, and idealistic.

-Interested in understanding and helping people

-Hold strongly onto their value system.

-Adaptable and laid-back unless a strongly-held value is threatened.

-Extremely loyal

-Mentally quick, and able to see possibilities.

-Creative and imaginative.

-Easily hurt.

INTP : Thinker (This kinda reminds me of James' personality)

-Quiet, reserved and unemotional, hard to get to know well.

-Logical, original, creative thinkers.

-Excited about theories and ideas.

-Capable and driven to turn theories into clear understanding.

-Value knowledge and competence.

-Non conforming and unpredictable.

-Individualistic, having no interest in leading or following others.

Future Jobs :

INFP

-Psychology

-Human resources professional

-Physical therapist

-Researcher

-Translator

-Legal mediator

-Employee development specialist

-Religious worker

-College professor : Humanities

-Massage therapist (LOL)

-Social worker

-Librarian

-Fashion designer (LOLOL)

-Holistic health practitioner

-Editor/art director (web site)

INTP

-Computer software designer/developer

-Venture capitalist

-Legal mediator (Again?)

-Financial analyst

-Economist

-College professor : philosophy, economics

-Musician (I like)

-Intellectual property attorney

-Web site designer

-Investigator

-Strategic planner

-Neurologist

-Pharmaceutical researcher

-Network integration specialist

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Really enjoyed the journey home yesterday with James.

Had a really good time of crapping about and it felt good to live like old times.

It really helped to take a load of stress off my mind.

Now with problems here and there.

The only people I can turn to are my handful of close friends.

Sometimes I need my own space, sometimes I need to talk.

Nowadays I feel as though my existence is getting less noticed =\

And sad to say, I'm gonna have to disappear for the next few weeks.

Won't see me after edge, won't see me after morning service and probably won't see me at evening services.

Well, I just hope that after these 2 months, everything falls nicely into place.

Unless God and the Devil have other plans for me.

...

It's becoming so hard to give a genuine smile nowadays.... =\

I'm sorry,

Hey dad look at me
Think back and talk to me
Did I grow up according to plan?
And do you think I'm wasting my time doing things I wanna do?
But it hurts when you disapprove all along

And now I try hard to make it
I just want to make you proud
I'm never gonna be good enough for you
I can't pretend that
I'm alright
And you can't change me

'Cuz we lost it all
Nothing lasts forever
I'm sorry
I can't be perfect
Now it's just too late and
We can't go back
I'm sorry
I can't be perfect

I try not to think
About the pain I feel inside
Did you know you used to be my hero?
All the days you spent with me
Now seem so far away
And it feels like you don't care anymore

Nothing's gonna change the things that you said
Nothing's gonna make this right again
Please don't turn your back
I can't believe it's hard
Just to talk to you
But you don't understand

Dear blog,

Today, I cried.

Recap of my random week!

Yes! I have fulfilled this proclaimed 'random week'!
Starting Monday, haircut with Andes and QB house -.-
Tuesday, school, then went down to PS to watch transformers!
Wednesday, met Evelyn and walked around CP.
Waited at Macs for Pamela after that. (We waited 2 hours).
Thursday, which was over 2 hours ago, went to Ngee Ann poly, met Si Hui there.
Haha, went to the school library with Pam, supposedly to study.
But we ended up slacking, as usual.
Gab Gnin and James joined us later on.
Had prata for dinner!
1 egg, 1 plaster, 1 tissue prata, 1 nescafe ice and 1 syrup lime!
Well, street evangelism is tomorrow, still contemplating on whether to ask invite Nic and Darrell along. Hmm.
Oh well compasspoint at 7.30pm.
We'll see.
Hope we'll touch some hearts tomorrow! =)
Seoul Garden on Sunday is confirmed! Wooohooo!
Gonna celebrate Stan's birthday on saturday after edge.
Means not gonna hang out with 3/4 youth. Aww....
Ah wells, I'm on Ushering duty for morning service this Sunday at Suntec, and on Choir duty for evening service. Awesome. Hope that Seoul Garden won't make my clothes stink!
Cheers to a good new week next week! =)

I've tried so hard to let go.
But the memories,
they're still fresh in my head.
Every time something reminds me of you,
I'd just stop,
and think.
Because I miss you so much.
And I shouldn't have done what I did.
It was all my fault.
Forgive me.

Things to look forward to this week....
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NOTHING!

Let this week be full of random crap!
On the spot decisions!
Always fun to try something new!
H1N1 doesn't scare me!

Things to plan for?
1. Prata!
2. Seoul Garden!
3. Complete Raving Rabbids with bro! =)
4. Complete Guitar Hero World Tour! =)
5. Gym?
6. Swimming?

Hahahaha going to watch transformers (again) tmr!
Its an awesome movie, definitely worth catching twice!
Cos there were some parts where I didn't pay much attention to cos Wendy was pulling my shirt.
Haha.

Last week of June! (Maybe not)

So yeah, so far, its been a good week.
Shopping at Bugis with Evelyn and Andes on Monday.
Bought new shoes!
Tuesday, school.
Met up with Lynette after that to go down to Andes' for caregroup.
Wednesday, some came over to my place, prayer meeting after that.
Played guitar for prayer meeting.
Was pretty good.
Thursday, went to watch transformers!
Awesome movie, won't mind catching it again with 3/4 on Tuesday!
Friday, went out with Evelyn to shop for Lavette's present.
Ivan came along.
Saturday, went to Bugis (again).
Bought bermudas, and a hoodie from peninsula plaza.
Played guitar for edge again. It was rocking!
After that Lavette's bbq party!
Was feeling hyper at first, but after awhile I lost the energy and just kept quiet.
Haha and emo-ed by the ledge for awhile.
Rawr.
Today, had street evangelism training, super excited about it.
Evening service was great!
During the AGM, we sat at the nursery room playing the 'MRT Game'
Super fun!
Its like a combination of whacko and tooki tooki.
Dinner at Hougang after that.
Not with 3/4 youth.
With parents hahaha.
But got to talk with the youth awhile as well.
Well here's what's been going on this week =)






Yup I really had fun!
Carmen preached for edge on Saturday!
It was an awesome message!
Really encouraged me alot.
It was great!
Yup hope for more fun soon!
P.S. Please organise things in the day, cos I can't go out at night =(