Hahahaha

Ok I have nothing better to do.
Dad's flying off in a few hours time.
Waiting for next class to start.
Lalalalalala.
Bored =\
Trying to be happy.
Laughing like siao in class.
Hyenas FTW!
zzzzzzZZZZZZZZ!

Yesterday, went to school, begged my parents to let me go to Evie's surprise thingy.
James came to my school and played CS with my coursemates!
Super funny!
Went to meet Evelyn and Andes at Tamp 1 later on.
Went for dinner.
Lavette joined us there.
Looked around for a cake for evie.
Ran after shuttle bus to IKEA.
Stopped by GIANT to look for party poppers.
Didn't find any.
Went to IKEA and waited.
Finally we hear the announcement,
"Dear customers, we have a lost 5 year old named Evie, dressed in a black jacket and red shirt. Please bring to the exit if found."
Waited at the exit.
Surprised her there.
Sang the birthday song twice in English, once in Chinese.
Prayed over her, took a photo.
And I left cos of the accursed curfew.
Took 27 back with Evelyn.
Bus super packed.
Thought about ALOT of things after alighting from the bus.
Wishing my holidays would just come sooner.
I need the break.
I wanna have fun! =)

Turn,

Turn you eyes upon Jesus,
Look full in His wonderful face
And the things of earth will grow strangely dim
In the light of His glory and grace.

Well, how's it been?
It's been ok-ok.
Can be better.
I realised that it's just a matter of perspective.
And a test of your faith in God.
And sad to say, I failed that test.
In my impatience and intolerance I've hurt so many others.
Right now all I ask, is for forgiveness.
From everyone who I've hurt during this time.
I'm sorry.
I really am.

I'm sorry for the person I became.
I'm sorry that it took so long for me to change.
I'm ready to be sure I never become that way again
'cause who I am hates who I've been.

God, please help.

"Footprints In The Sand"

You walked with me
Footprints in the sand
And helped me understand
Where I'm going

You walked with me
When I was all alone
With so much unknown
Along the way

And just when I
I thought I'd lost my way
You gave me strength to carry on
That's when I heard you say

I promise you
I'm always there
When your heart is filled with sorrow
And despair

And I'll carry you
When you need a friend
You'll find my footprints in the sand
When I'm weary
Well I know you'll be there
Cause I can feel you
When you say

I see my life flash across the sky

So many times have I been so afraid

And just when I have thought I lost my way

You give me strength to carry on

That's when I heard you say

It's been stressful...

I've been beaten down, I'm feeling down, tired and weary.
Emotionally drained.
Physically drained.
Spiritually drained.
I keep telling myself, just 1 more month to freedom.
But will I last that long?
I'm hope so.

Retro Fever~

It was good.

Really good.

Fun, funny, cool, crazy!

Went shopping for the outfits on Saturday.

Supposed to be studying, but yeah. =D

Worship was crazily off the hook!

Best sound system, best worship ever!

~Church on fire~

Didn't take many photos cos didn't wanna make Nicholas and Melvyn feel left out.

Melvyn got saved!

Great decision pal!

Dance item was good!

Best dressed!

Niceeee~~

Worse part was, I didn't take photo with sister! D=

Haha but took many photos with my mafia.

James the Mafia boss.

JJ the bodyguard.

Andes the Italian gangster.

Johnathon the big guy in a trenchcoat!

Lavette and Evelyn the... uhm...

No idea!

Haha!

Well but it was really really really fun.

For all those who missed it, all I have to say is....

You should have been there!

Swimming~~

Swimming with James today was good.
Managed 15 laps.
Backache after that.
Met Melvin and Vincent at the swimming pool.
Had a good chat there.
Introduced James to them.
Assignments piling up.
Stress coming in like never before.
The 4 hours of study thing is MUCH harder than I thought.
I feel like dying.
Too tiring.
Evangelism, Retro Fever and stuff coming up.
Will I be able to enjoy it to the fullest?
Or am I gonna let all this pull me down?
God give me strength.
To continue to place you in my highest priority.
Though studies and family are important.
I want to be able to put you first,
Even in the busiest of times.
Amen.

Suppose that I missed you
Suppose that I care
Suppose that I spent all my nights running scared
Suppose that I was never there

Psychology Personality Assessment

This was what my psychology class evaluated.

I'm both INFP and INTP

INFP / INTP (Introvert, Intuitive, Thinker/Feeler, Perceiver)

INFP : Idealist

-Quiet, reflective, and idealistic.

-Interested in understanding and helping people

-Hold strongly onto their value system.

-Adaptable and laid-back unless a strongly-held value is threatened.

-Extremely loyal

-Mentally quick, and able to see possibilities.

-Creative and imaginative.

-Easily hurt.

INTP : Thinker (This kinda reminds me of James' personality)

-Quiet, reserved and unemotional, hard to get to know well.

-Logical, original, creative thinkers.

-Excited about theories and ideas.

-Capable and driven to turn theories into clear understanding.

-Value knowledge and competence.

-Non conforming and unpredictable.

-Individualistic, having no interest in leading or following others.

Future Jobs :

INFP

-Psychology

-Human resources professional

-Physical therapist

-Researcher

-Translator

-Legal mediator

-Employee development specialist

-Religious worker

-College professor : Humanities

-Massage therapist (LOL)

-Social worker

-Librarian

-Fashion designer (LOLOL)

-Holistic health practitioner

-Editor/art director (web site)

INTP

-Computer software designer/developer

-Venture capitalist

-Legal mediator (Again?)

-Financial analyst

-Economist

-College professor : philosophy, economics

-Musician (I like)

-Intellectual property attorney

-Web site designer

-Investigator

-Strategic planner

-Neurologist

-Pharmaceutical researcher

-Network integration specialist

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Really enjoyed the journey home yesterday with James.

Had a really good time of crapping about and it felt good to live like old times.

It really helped to take a load of stress off my mind.

Now with problems here and there.

The only people I can turn to are my handful of close friends.

Sometimes I need my own space, sometimes I need to talk.

Nowadays I feel as though my existence is getting less noticed =\

And sad to say, I'm gonna have to disappear for the next few weeks.

Won't see me after edge, won't see me after morning service and probably won't see me at evening services.

Well, I just hope that after these 2 months, everything falls nicely into place.

Unless God and the Devil have other plans for me.

...

It's becoming so hard to give a genuine smile nowadays.... =\

I'm sorry,

Hey dad look at me
Think back and talk to me
Did I grow up according to plan?
And do you think I'm wasting my time doing things I wanna do?
But it hurts when you disapprove all along

And now I try hard to make it
I just want to make you proud
I'm never gonna be good enough for you
I can't pretend that
I'm alright
And you can't change me

'Cuz we lost it all
Nothing lasts forever
I'm sorry
I can't be perfect
Now it's just too late and
We can't go back
I'm sorry
I can't be perfect

I try not to think
About the pain I feel inside
Did you know you used to be my hero?
All the days you spent with me
Now seem so far away
And it feels like you don't care anymore

Nothing's gonna change the things that you said
Nothing's gonna make this right again
Please don't turn your back
I can't believe it's hard
Just to talk to you
But you don't understand

Dear blog,

Today, I cried.

Recap of my random week!

Yes! I have fulfilled this proclaimed 'random week'!
Starting Monday, haircut with Andes and QB house -.-
Tuesday, school, then went down to PS to watch transformers!
Wednesday, met Evelyn and walked around CP.
Waited at Macs for Pamela after that. (We waited 2 hours).
Thursday, which was over 2 hours ago, went to Ngee Ann poly, met Si Hui there.
Haha, went to the school library with Pam, supposedly to study.
But we ended up slacking, as usual.
Gab Gnin and James joined us later on.
Had prata for dinner!
1 egg, 1 plaster, 1 tissue prata, 1 nescafe ice and 1 syrup lime!
Well, street evangelism is tomorrow, still contemplating on whether to ask invite Nic and Darrell along. Hmm.
Oh well compasspoint at 7.30pm.
We'll see.
Hope we'll touch some hearts tomorrow! =)
Seoul Garden on Sunday is confirmed! Wooohooo!
Gonna celebrate Stan's birthday on saturday after edge.
Means not gonna hang out with 3/4 youth. Aww....
Ah wells, I'm on Ushering duty for morning service this Sunday at Suntec, and on Choir duty for evening service. Awesome. Hope that Seoul Garden won't make my clothes stink!
Cheers to a good new week next week! =)

I've tried so hard to let go.
But the memories,
they're still fresh in my head.
Every time something reminds me of you,
I'd just stop,
and think.
Because I miss you so much.
And I shouldn't have done what I did.
It was all my fault.
Forgive me.