To all you haters out there :

Don't judge me unless you know me.

You're either a friend, or a stranger.

I don't make enemies.

The day I thought I'd never get through,

I got over you

How I love you

How my soul longs for you

To be with you

Adore you

Nothing more i want to do

Than to sing to you

Is it possible

To be best friends but of different cliques?

Go away.

Leave me ALONE.

I guess

Love is the only thing we live in this world for.

Sweet Memories

Emotions never felt before

Well,

It's almost been a year since that fateful day.

Many things have happened.

Cousin's gone to Uni.

Stanley joined the youth ministry.

I finally made it into the regional and the edge worship ministry.

I guess, we've all moved on.

And are all looking forward to that day where we'll see you in heaven.

Wow, it's been a year.

It sure didn't seem that long.

But I guess, I'll miss your presence a lot.

Hope the past year in heaven has been enjoyable.

To eternity (:

A repeat of the post dated 15th October 2008.

Ok, so what we feared the most has finally come to past.
The news came as we were on the way home to Singapore earlier today.
I'm guessing that dad's mind must have been in a whirl the moment he heard the news.
It also made the trip up to Malaysia worthwhile.
At least we got to spend time with him in his final days.
All the suffering has finally left him for good.
He's with God now, rejoicing in heaven with the angels.
He got saved about 3 years back I think.
I'm not too sure about the details, I was just glad that he finally gave his life to Christ.
I don't think that I have appreciated him enough during his time on earth.
He was a good man, always looking out for the family, and making tough choices for us.
He used to cross highways the way we cross normal roads just to get to the market and buy breakfast back for all of us, despite his age.
He walked slowly, but he always made it back safely, by God's grace.
Even when he's hearing became weaker, he still continued to buy breakfast for everyone, walking the 1km+ to the market every morning.
When his vision became impaired, he still continued to do the same, all out of love.
But what did I do?
I complained the food wasn't nice, Singapore's breakfast is better.
I didn't respond when he spoke to me.
I didn't bother to learn Cantonese to communicate with him.
I didn't spend enough time with him, thats for sure.
Every time I went up to Malaysia to visit him and my relatives, he would give me $50 SGD to spend, saying that I was too skinny and needed to eat more.
Yes, I spent the money eating, but I took the money for granted and always expected him to give and give.
Throughout the time spent in Malaysia this time, I felt such a strong feeling of sadness, as I realised that this was the man who used to look after me since I was a baby.
He was the one who watched me grow up and always did what was best for me.
He was the one who always rejoiced and smiled every time he saw me.
And not once have I appreciated him for that.
Like they say, you never know what you got till its gone.
And now, all I can do is hold back the tears and be strong.
While this phrase keeps ringing in my head.

All of my life
In every season
You are still God
I have a reason to sing
I have a reason to worship

Because I know that he's finally out of the pain and suffering, and I can rejoice in this situation because I know that he's with our Father in heaven.
In every season, He is still God, He will never fail, He has a plan.
Even when Grandpa's gone, life still has to move on, we can't mourn forever.
We can look forward to the day when we meet with him in heaven.
Till then, we will carry on living for God, because He will never fail us.

Thank you everybody for showing so much support to me and my family.
I really appreciate it.
Do keep the family in prayer.
And may God help us to be strong.

Will you miss me if I leave?

So many things coming.

So many bad and horrible things.

It's one storm after another.

A typhoon, then a tornado, followed by a hurricane, and then a whirlwind.

I feel like I'm being tossed about, and there's nothing I can do.

I wanna run away.

Take refuge till the storms blow over.

I don't think I'll have the strength to face any storm head on.

I've grown so tired.

The only thing keeping me alive is....

ღloveღ

Wow

Proverbs 14:29
A patient man has great understanding,
but a quick-tempered man displays folly.

Matthew 7:1-5
Judge not, that you be not judged. For with the judgment you pronounce you will be judged, and with the measure you use it will be measured to you. Why do you see the speck that is in your brother's eye, but do not notice the log that is in your own eye? Or how can you say to your brother, ‘Let me take the speck out of your eye,’ when there is the log in your own eye? You hypocrite, first take the log out of your own eye, and then you will see clearly to take the speck out of your brother's eye.

I need to take refuge...

And I realised,

That I was after something too far fetched.
It was impossible.
Now I'm back at square one.
Trying to find a reason to love again.

How I lie.

You lie inside your head. Your thoughts confuse you, and you would rather be anyone else than yourself. You convince yourself of things that aren't true. You might think you are ugly, stupid, mean, or annoying, when you are actually none of those things. You constantly put yourself down and convince yourself that you don't deserve anything good. You don't hear compliments and when people give you one, you deny it. You give others the compliments you wish you could give yourself, but when you think of who you are, only the negative comes to mind. It is possible you are paranoid about what others are saying about you behind your back, or are trying to match yourself to an impossible standard. There might have been someone in your life who put you down so much you actually started to believe it. Trust me, if you think you are a bad person, you most likely aren't. Bad people think they are good, otherwise they wouldn't be as mean.

You lie because you mistake it for the truth. When others tell you positive things about yourself, you often just believe they are lying to make you feel better. In actuality, they are telling the truth and you are lying to yourself. Your weakness are the people who don't openly compliment you, but truly believe you are amazing anyway. Their compliments are along the lines of "You make me feel happy" or "You are my everything." A lot of people find these cheesy, but these are the compliments that allow you to feel good about yourself for who you are. When people tell you good things about themselves and tell you it's all because of you, the dark lies you tell yourself seem to float away.