And the greatest of these is Love.

Wish List (More like "Stuff that I'm saving up for")

2011-11-28T23:09:00.009+08:00

This will probably my last post before I go into NS.

Will be about all the stuff that I really really want right now.

Will put it here to remind myself not to overspend and to focus on saving up for all these!

POD HD 500 Multi Effects Pedal - $895

Duesenberg DTV Starplayer TV Electric Guitar (Blue Sparkle) - $2570

Taylor GS7 - $2999

MacBook Pro 13-inch: 2.8GHz - $2048

Condenser Mic - $400+?

And of course, clothes, bags accessories!

Yup, hopefully I'll be able to get all these within 2 years, otherwise I'll have to come out of NS and work for these, but nonetheless, I'm determined to save up for all of this!

Bye everyone, seeya in 2 years! :D

Dedicated to Jonger, @jonger026

2011-10-28T01:05:00.003+08:00

Hey bro, just thought I'd dedicate this post to you. I know I said a few words at the steamboat earlier, but I was so caught up in the moment that I totally lost my train of thought. This is a much more comfortable way for me to express my thoughts.

Wow, it's been barely a year since the 2 of us became so close, I remember even back then in Peirce, we weren't very close, and we totally had different lives when we were in poly. I really thank God so much that we managed to re-ignite this friendship, and I'm really glad at where we are as friends today. I will never regret that decision to pick up my phone to you to get you down for The Edge Conference 2010. That was probably the best decision the both of us made that year.

Over this year, we've had our ups and downs, many memorable moments and so many times that we've met up just to chill and have fun. I've really seen you grow a lot, in terms of speech, actions, attitudes. It's so heartwarming to know that you're pursuing God with all your heart, and not holding back. The hunger you have for more of His presence is truly inspiring. And like I said at the farewell, I'm really really really proud of you, and I mean it!

Love all the times we hang out! Especially all the retarded times, like the photo right underneath this :P

Anyway, as you embark of this new journey, this new phase of life, don't ever hesitate to call on me whenever you feel discouraged, lonely, persecuted or oppressed. I'll always be here for you, to talk to you, to pray for you. And I know you'll definitely do the same for me. I know we'll all do the same for each other in B4! #BrothersUnited!

With that, I wish you all the best in NS, 2 years will be over and done with in no time, then we'll have that epic holiday with the gang like we always spoke about, till then, keep the faith, don't stop fixing your eyes on God everyday, I pray that as we both come out of the army, we'll be stronger in our faith then ever before!

God bless you,

Arthur.

Love,

2011-10-17T13:00:00.005+08:00

These few weeks have been rather confusing.

A battle of emotions, thoughts, and attitudes.

After a lot of self reflection, and prayer, I came to realise that I've been handling everything wrongly.

I've been harbouring wrong attitudes, I've not been coming to my friends in love, and instead I've been allowing what others say affect my friendships.

In Matthew 7:1, is says "Do not judge, or you too will be judged"

How many times have I been so judgmental towards others?

How many times have I allowed such negative attitudes come in and try to mess up my friendships?

Should I not be working towards being more like Jesus?

Shouldn't I love others, regardless of their faults and weaknesses?

Be completely humble and gentle; be patient, bearing with one another in love. - Ephesians 4:2

“You have heard that it was said, ‘Love your neighbor and hate your enemy.’ But I tell you, love your enemies and pray for those who persecute you, that you may be children of your Father in heaven. He causes his sun to rise on the evil and the good, and sends rain on the righteous and the unrighteous. If you love those who love you, what reward will you get? Are not even the tax collectors doing that? And if you greet only your own people, what are you doing more than others? Do not even pagans do that? Be perfect, therefore, as your heavenly Father is perfect. - Matthew 5:43-48

So many bible verses stress on loving one another, even loving our enemies.

So why do we, why do I still judge and get angry with people for the things that they do?

Even in the verse in Eph 4:2, it says be humble and GENTLE.

I don't think the way I've been dealing with things have been very gentle, instead it's been rather harsh, blunt and direct.

Thank God for His word.

Without it I wouldn't have noticed all my shortcomings.

Now I must change myself.

Even the way I deal with my friends, whenever they do something wrong, or whenever they do something I don't like.

I pray to God that He'll teach me to be humble and gentle.

A fool shows his annoyance at once, but a prudent man overlooks an insult - Proverbs 12:16

Reckless words pierce like a sword, but the tongue of the wise brings healing - Proverbs 12:18

A wise man fears the Lord and shuns evil, but a fool is hotheaded and reckless - Proverbs 14:16

A quick-tempered man does foolish things, and a crafty man is hated - Proverbs 14:17

A patient man has great understanding, but a quick-tempered man displays folly - Proverbs 14:29

A gentle answer turns away wrath, but a harsh word stirs up anger - Proverbs 15:1

A hot-tempered man stirs up dissension, but a patient man calms a quarrel - Proverbs 15:18

Better a patient man than a warrior, a man who controls his temper than one who takes a city - Proverbs 16:32

A man of knowledge uses words with restraint, and a man of understanding is even-tempered - Proverbs 17:27

It is to a man's honor to avoid strife, but every fool is quick to quarrel - Proverbs 20:3

Do not say, "I'll pay you back for this wrong!" Wait for the Lord, and He will deliver you - Proverbs 20:22

Like a city whose walls are broken down is a man who lacks self-control - Proverbs 25:28

A fool gives full vent to his anger, but a wise man keeps himself under control - Proverbs 29:11

An angry man stirs up dissension, and a hot-tempered one commits many sins - Proverbs 29:22

You have heard that it was said to the people long ago, "Do not murder, and anyone who murders will be subject to judgment." But I tell you that anyone who is angry with his brother will be subject to judgment ... first go and be reconciled to your brother; then come and offer your gift - Matthew 5:21-24

Do not be overcome by evil, but overcome evil with good - Romans 12:21

Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. It is not rude, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs - 1 Corinthians 13:4-5

The acts of the sinful nature are obvious: sexual immorality, impurity and debauchery; idolatry and witchcraft; hatred, discord, jealousy, fits of rage, selfish ambition, dissensions, factions - Galatians 5:19-20

"In your anger do not sin": Do not let the sun go down while you are still angry, and do not give the devil a foothold - Ephesians 4:26-27

Do not let any unwholesome talk come out of your mouths, but only what is helpful for building others up according to their needs, that it may benefit those who listen. And do not grieve the Holy Spirit of God, with whom you were sealed for the day of redemption. Get rid of all bitterness, rage and anger, brawling and slander, along with every form of malice. Be kind and compassionate to one another, forgiving each other, just as in Christ God forgave you - Ephesians 4:29-32

But now you must rid yourselves of all such things as these: anger, rage, malice, slander, and filthy language from your lips - Colossians 3:8

My dear brothers, take note of this: Everyone should be quick to listen, slow to speak and slow to become angry, for man's anger does not bring about the righteous life that God desires - James 1:19-20

Do not repay evil with evil or insult with insult, but with blessing, because to this you were called so that you may inherit a blessing - 1 Peter 3:9

After the encounter,

2011-10-15T01:07:00.002+08:00

You know it's a good net lesson when it speaks to you as you teach it.

Our encounters with Jesus ought to spark these five things in us:

1. Deeper Worship

Then he turned toward the woman and said to Simon, “Do you see this woman? I came into your house. You did not give me any water for my feet, but she wet my feet with her tears and wiped them with her hair. You did not give me a kiss, but this woman, from the time I entered, has not stopped kissing my feet. You did not put oil on my head, but she has poured perfume on my feet. Therefore, I tell you, her many sins have been forgiven—as her great love has shown. But whoever has been forgiven little loves little.” - Luke 7:44-47

When we encounter the love of God, His wonderful grace and His glory, it causes us to want to give God all our worship.

2. Stronger Commitment

When Simon Peter saw this, he fell at Jesus’ knees and said, “Go away from me, Lord; I am a sinful man!” For he and all his companions were astonished at the catch of fish they had taken, and so were James and John, the sons of Zebedee, Simon’s partners. Then Jesus said to Simon, “Don’t be afraid; from now on you will fish for people.” So they pulled their boats up on shore, left everything and followed him. - Luke 5:8-11

Our encounters with Jesus shows us how powerful God is, and how helpless we are.

3. Greater Relationship With God

From this time many of his disciples turned back and no longer followed him. “You do not want to leave too, do you?” Jesus asked the Twelve. Simon Peter answered him, “Lord, to whom shall we go? You have the words of eternal life. - John 6:66-68

• Someone who has truly encountered God will understand that there is NO ONE like Him.
• This understanding moves us towards having a greater relationship with God – because He is the only One.

4. Heartfelt Gratitude

Now on his way to Jerusalem, Jesus traveled along the border between Samaria and Galilee. As he was going into a village, ten men who had leprosy met him. They stood at a distance and called out in a loud voice, “Jesus, Master, have pity on us!” When he saw them, he said, “Go, show yourselves to the priests.” And as they went, they were cleansed. One of them, when he saw he was healed, came back, praising God in a loud voice. He threw himself at Jesus’ feet and thanked him—and he was a Samaritan. Jesus asked, “Were not all ten cleansed? Where are the other nine? - Luke 17:11-17

• Jesus dies on the cross for us so that we can be reconciled back with God – this is an awesome privilege.
• Therefore, when we encounter God, we need to be grateful and thank God for the encounter – just as the leper did after he received His healing from God.
• This gratitude will fuel us to worship deeper, love him greater and be committed to Him even more each time.

5. Bolder Witness (Most important to me)

The woman said, “I know that Messiah” (called Christ) “is coming. When he comes, he will explain everything to us.” Then Jesus declared, “I, the one speaking to you—I am he.”Just then his disciples returned and were surprised to find him talking with a woman. But no one asked, “What do you want?” or “Why are you talking with her?” Then, leaving her water jar, the woman went back to the town and said to the people, “Come, see a man who told me everything I ever did. Could this be the Messiah?” They came out of the town and made their way toward him. - John 4:25-30

• We know from the Bible that every time someone encounters Jesus, they leave to tell everyone about Him and what He has done for them.
• Similarly, when we encounter Jesus in our lives, we are empowered to be a bolder witness for Him.
• These encounters with Jesus are like tools in our hands to share His love and his reality to those around us. These are our testimonies of who Jesus is to us and what He can do for everyone!

Taken from net lesson of 14/10/2011

Desire

2011-10-11T01:01:00.003+08:00

And this is my prayer: that your love may abound more and more in knowledge and depth of insight, so that you may be able to discern what is best and may be pure and blameless for the day of Christ, filled with the fruit of righteousness that comes through Jesus Christ—to the glory and praise of God - Philippians 1:9-11

The right attitude, the correct mindset, my thoughts, my speech, my actions.

All these have to be right if I want to be a person of influence in this generation.

No more judging others, no more exclusion.

But I gotta be one who leads by example, I gotta be one who fights for righteousness, and not for personal gain.

I gotta be bold enough to correct where correction is due, and not shrug it off and accept it just because they are good friends of mine.

To pursue not riches, not fame, not happiness, but to fix my eyes on Jesus, and focus only on achieving Godliness and purity.

That is my desire, and I hope that you, my friends, share this same vision as me.

That is my prayer.

Note to self

2011-10-06T00:28:00.002+08:00

Unstoppable prayer

Things that stop me from praying:

1 - I think too much

2 - I talk too much

3 - I rest too much

Remember to pray in all situations.

Prayer makes me UNSTOPPABLE.

Pray when a season ends.

Pray in a crisis.

Pray for God's will to be done.

Pray to obtain God's promises.

Pray in weakness.

Pray.

And He said

2011-09-16T00:50:00.003+08:00

Finally,

finally you see,

that you need Me,

the creator of the mountains and seas,

the birds and the trees.

As you bow your knee,

and mutter your sorrowful plea

all I see

is that you mean

so much to me

your Father and King.

When He said "it is done"

you became my son,

so please don't run,

but look to the One,

the light that shines just like the sun,

and all the burdens that weigh a ton,

will be taken away,

one by one.

Friendship

2011-09-03T13:17:00.000+08:00

Two people are better off than one, for they can help each other succeed. If one person falls, the other can reach out and help. But someone who falls alone is in real trouble. Likewise, two people lying close together can keep each other warm. But how can one be warm alone? A person standing alone can be attacked and defeated, but two can stand back-to-back and conquer. Three are even better, for a triple-braided cord is not easily broken. - Ecclesiastes 4:9–12

Forgive

2011-08-31T15:26:00.001+08:00

The weak can never forgive. Forgiveness is the attribute of the strong.

Attitude

2011-08-28T09:32:00.001+08:00

“You cannot control what happens to you, but you can control your attitude toward what happens to you, and in that, you will be mastering change rather than allowing it to master you.”

Help me, Lord.

2011-08-10T23:13:00.001+08:00

I tried Lord

I tried Lord
I tried hard to be Your good little boy
Chin up, head high
All zeal and no joy
Thinking all my good deeds could please Jesus
Boy, was I wrong
Though I knew the right songs, all my cymbals and gongs played the melodies wrong
And it wasn’t long ‘til I saw my disease
A life spent wanting to please
On hands and knees
To make right, to appease
God help me please
This can’t be Christianity, it can’t be
The whole thing’s like insanity
Where’s the rest of eternal security?
Where’s the hope of a God big enough to cope with all my hang-ups and insecurities?
Certainly this isn’t breathing
My chest burning and heaving
It’s like my pulse is ceasing
Like my heart quits beating
Yet this I recall to mind and therefore I have hope:
You died, Lord
You died, Lord
Assuredly, like the coming of the dawn, the Father’s love song goes on
Drowning out my bitter songs
And breaking through walls and barriers
Christ swoops in, removes sin, picks up His bride and carries her
So I can sing in agreement with the King this thing:
There’s only one thing that pleases the Father
The God-man on the tree in the midst of the scoffers
Now I finally see that Christ is what Christ offers
And I’m finally free in the love of the Father

Past Glories

2011-06-11T00:10:00.002+08:00

Sure, the things you used to do were great, but what about now?

This has been ringing in my head the past few days.

Been reminding me that I need to step up to do something more, more than what I'm doing now.

Sure, I've brought lots of friends to church.

Sure, I've gotten many people saved.

But that was then.

I can boast all I want to my members, the people around me about what I used to be capable of in the past.

But all that really matters is what I can do now.

What can I do, to get people saved now?

I'm so tied down at work, so tired at the end of each day.

How can I boast of what I was able to do in the past, when I was free and energetic, yet now when I'm tied down I can't do what I did.

I must learn to count on God's strength, and once I'm able to lead people to Christ, no matter how tired I am, I would count that as an accomplishment, and only God gets the glory.

So often I hear of people who used to do great things in the church.

But when I see them now, they're just sitting there, being spectators and mere members.

I think to myself, "there is no retiring, when it comes to the salvation of man."

These old timers can't possibly bask in their past glories and not continue to work for the kingdom of God.

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Just like in Matthew 20 : 1-16

1 “For the Kingdom of Heaven is like the landowner who went out early one morning to hire workers for his vineyard. ² He agreed to pay the normal daily wage and sent them out to work.

³ “At nine o’clock in the morning he was passing through the marketplace and saw some people standing around doing nothing. ⁴ So he hired them, telling them he would pay them whatever was right at the end of the day. ⁵ So they went to work in the vineyard. At noon and again at three o’clock he did the same thing.

⁶ “At five o’clock that afternoon he was in town again and saw some more people standing around. He asked them, ‘Why haven’t you been working today?’

⁷ “They replied, ‘Because no one hired us.’

“The landowner told them, ‘Then go out and join the others in my vineyard.’

⁸ “That evening he told the foreman to call the workers in and pay them, beginning with the last workers first. ⁹ When those hired at five o’clock were paid, each received a full day’s wage. ¹⁰ When those hired first came to get their pay, they assumed they would receive more. But they, too, were paid a day’s wage. ¹¹ When they received their pay, they protested to the owner, ¹² ‘Those people worked only one hour, and yet you’ve paid them just as much as you paid us who worked all day in the scorching heat.’

¹³ “He answered one of them, ‘Friend, I haven’t been unfair! Didn’t you agree to work all day for the usual wage? ¹⁴ Take your money and go. I wanted to pay this last worker the same as you. ¹⁵ Is it against the law for me to do what I want with my money? Should you be jealous because I am kind to others?’

¹⁶ “So those who are last now will be first then, and those who are first will be last.”
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Ok I'm not dissin' anyone in particular here.

But shouldn't it be this way?

Everyone should be playing their part to add to the kingdom, yet I see idlers and people who think they've done enough and it's time to rest already.

There are times of rest, but we should never get too comfortable being in rest mode.

Cos' there are people on this earth that only we can reach, and no one else will be able to reach.

Would you be able to sleep at night, knowing that if these people were to pass away, they'd be placed in eternal torment, and all because you chose to think that there's more time.

It's time to wake up.

No more pride, no more doubt, no more hesitation.

Let's go all out to see this generation saved.

Yours to take.

2011-04-24T07:32:00.001+08:00

Nightlights

2011-04-14T07:13:00.002+08:00

Be Thou exalted over my reputation,

'Cause applause is a poor form of soul medication.

And I've tried it for years, but my symptoms remain:

Still fretting the day that they'll misplace my name,

Still selling my soul for American fame.

Treating the promotion of Jesus like a well oiled machine,

Advancing His kingdom just to snag some acclaim.

Now, I'm both comforted and haunted that it isn't just me though.

I see a nation of people needing to feed their own egos,

Parading status like steeples.

Do we not know it's evil to love ourselves more than both God and His people?

But see, here's where you turn this poem on it's head,

'Cause the greatest among us came as servant instead,

And You humbled Yourself to the point of Your death.

Apparently love for the Father's glory runs red.

So friends, will we point to the Son till our own flames grow dim?

Will our bright lights become merely night-lights near Him?

Words echo once, let them echo again:

Be Thou exalted over my reputation.

- Jimmy Needham

All that I can really do now.

2011-04-09T01:22:00.000+08:00

God, please please please reassure me...

Forgiven and Loved

2011-04-04T12:10:00.005+08:00

Tell me I’m forgiven and loved
‘Cause I hear it from the street corner priests
On how God is love and how man can be clean
But my joy has been on holiday
And my peace has almost passed away
Tell me I’m forgiven and free

O I tried and tried to rectify my hopeless situation
But I bought the lie I still have work to do
Now I’m working nine to five like I can earn my own salvation
But there is no condemnation in You

O whisper to me now that it’s for real
‘Cause in the silence of these walls righteousness lost its appeal
Dirty deeds have done me in
O but that can’t stop the faithful friend
Giving mercy once again as You heal
Here it is I’m feeling it

O He died, He died to rectify my hopeless situation
And His blood commands my guilt to leave
Now on Calvary I stand
Empty pockets, open hands
O there is no condemnation for me

Child, you’re forgiven and loved
Child, you’re forgiven and loved
Child, you’re forgiven
And child, you are loved
Child, you’re forgiven and loved

Love exploring new genre of music.
And definitely love exploring different genres of music in the Christian music industry.
This song has superb lyrics.
And the genre makes it sound like Jimmy Needham is the Jason Mraz of of Christian music.
Heh, enjoy!

In His Presence

2011-04-02T04:21:00.002+08:00

Probably one of my favourite songs ever!
Love every aspect of this song.
The lyrics, the arrangement, the dynamics.
Takes a really skillful band with a true heart of worship to pull off this song perfectly.

Every time I hear this song, I feel so at ease.
It's like the storms, the waves and unrest in my soul suddenly stops.
Everything feels calm and at peace.
Although it's the Holy Spirit that causes this change of atmosphere, I believe this song is that anointed that it welcomes the Holy Spirit in the moment it's being played/sung.

God is real, people.
He loves us, and desires for us to love Him.

2011-03-29T10:05:00.004+08:00

The Lord is my light and my salvation; Whom shall I fear? The LORD is the defense of my life; Whom shall I dread? - Psalm 27:1 (NASB)

He loves us too much to leave us alone.
God, please be my defence for all of my life.

Currently My Favourite Song!

2011-03-15T01:30:00.003+08:00

There's victory in the Cross,
I'm breaking free, all my chains are gone
I will sing till my lungs give out
I'm gonna shout,
Now that I've found victory!

WE.WERE.EPIC

2011-03-11T02:57:00.002+08:00

Wow, really gotta start opening up those old photo albums to reminisce.

Really can't remember us being friends since we were THAT small.

Haha wow it's been so many years.

We're all over the place now, but I guess these long-term friendships are made to last forever.

Cheers to friendship!

2011-02-25T11:41:00.000+08:00

2011-02-21T16:30:00.001+08:00

You are from God, little children, and have overcome them; because greater is He who is in you than he who is in the world. - 1 John 4:4 (New American Standard Bible)

Just a while more..

2011-02-17T01:05:00.003+08:00

Been thinking a lot about her as of late.

Don't think many will know who I'm referring to.

After the 'Boy Meets Girl' series, my eyes have really been opened.

And yeah, God still hasn't said anything yet, after I asked Him about her.

So I'm guessing I still have to wait.

And my green light won't come anyway, not at least for another 3 years.

3 years, I was thinking. 3 years. Wow.

That's long. But after reading a passage in the bible, which said :

Jacob was in love with Rachel and said, “I’ll work for you seven years in return for your younger daughter Rachel.” Laban said, “It’s better that I give her to you than to some other man. Stay here with me.” So Jacob served seven years to get Rachel, but they seemed like only a few days to him because of his love for her. -Genesis 29 : 18-20

Thinking about it. Wow. Jacob worked 7 years to get the woman he loved. And it seemed like only a few days because his love for her was so strong.

I guess this would be a test of how strong my love would be for her, too.

And also if she isn't with someone else by the time I finally get the go-ahead.

Oh well, God promised me good and not evil in Jeremiah 29:11, so I'm gonna claim it!

Even if she's not the one, I'm sure that God has the perfect one for me out there somewhere.

Arthur, Y U SO LIDDAT.

2011-02-08T03:12:00.003+08:00

Been dreading school a lot these few weeks.
Everyday I drag my feet to the lab to do work.
This really isn't for me.
I try SO HARD, but really, this school, this course really isn't for me.
I'm in year 3 already.
Survived till here only by God's grace.
The grace that I really really need right now.
School's really been taking the life out of me.
I'm now more short tempered and easily weary.
Need to snap out of this.
Been so distracted thinking of the plans that God has in store for me after I graduate and after NS.
These 3 years are gonna be quicker if I purpose to live for him not just after NS, but before and during it.
Right now that's just my struggle.
I enter school with the mentality that the devil resides in my school (which in fact I quite strongly believe he does).
I really need God to empower me during this period.
Bad enough I don't have many friends in school, bad enough my parents aren't really showing me the emotional and spiritual support that I need.
I'm really really counting on God's strength and grace to pull through right now.

But he said to me, “My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness.” Therefore I will boast all the more gladly about my weaknesses, so that Christ’s power may rest on me. 10 That is why, for Christ’s sake, I delight in weaknesses, in insults, in hardships, in persecutions, in difficulties. For when I am weak, then I am strong. - 2 Corinthians 12:9-10

2011 so far

2011-01-16T23:04:00.011+08:00

Well it's only been 16 days into 2011 and it feels like 1/4 of the year has gone by already!

It's been one super eventful year so far.
Many hang outs and birthdays.

So we end off 2010 with Watchnight Service at VFC like we do every year without fail! Super crazy night!

And we start off 2011 with a sleepover at my place, most of us stayed awake till morning. Was really madness!

1st Sunday of the year, was on choir duty for both morning and evening duty! Had lunch with Lavette, CheeKit and Josephine at Sho Teppan at Raffles Place!

Celebrated our dear net leader Ces' birthday at net with her new haircut!

Meeting up for some quality time over dinner with awesome friends and some new found friends! And a surprise pre-birthday celebration for YingTing!

And of course the clock struck 12midnight and it's time for the real surprise! With a different group this time!

And the weekend comes! Couldn't attend net due to my dad's birthday, had a great sushi dinner.

Prawning on Saturday morning.

Crazy foul mood in the morning (I'm not a morning person).

Overslept, thank God Nicholas stayed over if not I'd miss the whole prawning activity!

Monopoly deal after catching the prawns and while waiting for the really helpful people to barbeque the prawns for us!

And finally, edge! Love it. I'm always found here on Saturdays by hook or by crook!

Best place to be!

Just wanna thank God for his never ending love and faithfulness.

And for blessing me with such great friends who are a source of joy and encouragement.

Thank you Jesus for using me to be able to share Your salvation with my best friends in secondary school, Nicholas, Vincent, and Jonger.

I'm so glad to have learned that Nicholas' mum is actually fine with him coming to church!

Praise the Lord!.

And also, I've started discipling with Jonger.

God is really so good!

Here's one of my favourite songs!

Really declaring how good God is!

Also, The Edge has started on this new series on Boy Meets Girl.

Talking on the topic about relationships, finding the right person for you and stuff like that.

It's been a really enriching 2 sessions already!

I do encourage everyone to come down to check it out!

2011-01-13T00:19:00.001+08:00

Feelings - don't you hate them sometimes?

2010-11-23T18:43:00.001+08:00

If you ever loved somebody put your hands up.
Now they’re gone and you wish you could give them everything.

A new phase

2010-10-30T01:24:00.002+08:00

Okay, so it's been about 3 months since I've been here.
It's been a roller coaster ride of emotions.
Having to choose between so many things.
Having to make decisions that will affect relationships positively.
It's been trying, it's been tough.
However, thank God for the patience he's given me.
Always, I've been asked, "so who's better? Them or us?".
And I always have to avoid it.
Oh well.
Just when I was starting to get accepted in the 3/4 cliques, this had to happen.
God sees the bigger picture, of course.
I've learned to accept that I'm a part of 7/8 now, but being part of a new region doesn't necessarily mean that I have to throw away old relationships.
I'm still trying to learn to find the balance.
Hope God continues to grant me strength in this.
All seems to be going good at the moment.
7/8 is great, but it's definitely not home.
I'm still waiting for the day that I can finally go home (:

Officially Missing You

2010-10-02T03:41:00.002+08:00

Going through all photos of 2009-2010,

it suddenly dawned on me.

I won't be spending time with the people who mean the world to me on days like Christmas, regional youth activities, dinners, lunches, suppers, hangouts.

It's all changed.

Haven't felt the full force of it till now.

Sighhh, I really miss all the times we had.

Now it's all far gone.

Confused

2010-07-18T01:11:00.001+08:00

That's what this generation is.

Voices

2010-06-25T09:50:00.004+08:00

So many voices in this world.
Some tell you where to go.
Some tell you who you should be.
Some tell you what they want you to be.
Confusion sets in.
Doubt creeps in.
Amidst all these voices, who should we all listen to?
The voice of truth, of course.
Just because someone tells you to be something you're not, and though it may feel like that person's right, though it may seem like the right thing to do, just ask yourself, "Is that what God wants me to do?"
Yes, friends, we shouldn't always trust the voices we hear everyday.
Instead we should be still, wait upon the Lord, to hear His voice, through the Word, by worshipping Him, and of course in prayer.

A simple man believes anything, but a prudent man gives thought to his steps. (Proverbs 14:15)

And of course, the devil has a voice too.
And trust me, his words are always so luring, so tempting.
We gotta be wise to be able to detect that it's the devil's voice speaking.
Of course, when a temptation to do something bad comes, even if it may seem small, stuff like disobeying parents, etc, we gotta stop and question ourselves, and if your conscience starts to stir up in you, you KNOW that you're not doing the right thing.

But I am afraid that just as Eve was deceived by the serpent's cunning, your minds may somehow be led astray from your sincere and pure devotion to Christ. (2 Corinthians 11:3)

1 Corinthians 13 : 4-7

2010-06-02T12:53:00.001+08:00

Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. It is not rude, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres.

I am gonna

2010-06-01T15:01:00.000+08:00

DISAPPEAR

We are the world

2010-04-27T23:02:00.002+08:00

We all need somebody that we can lean on

when you wake up look around and see that your dreams gone

when the earth quakes we’ll help you make it through the storm

when the floor breaks a magic carpet to stand on

we are the World united by love so strong

when the radio isn’t on you can hear the songs

a guided light on the dark road your walking on

a sign post to find the dreams you thought was gone

someone to help you move the obstacles you stumbled on

someone to help you rebuild after the rubble’s gone

we are the World connected by a common bond

Love the whole planet sing it along

Make my day.

2010-04-21T00:32:00.001+08:00

I'm Still Yours

2010-04-13T19:52:00.000+08:00

If You washed away my vanity
If You took away my words
If all my world was swept away
Would You be enough for me?
Would my beating heart still sing?

If I lost it all
Would my hands stay lifted
To the God who gives and takes away
If You take it all
This life You've given
Still my heart will sing to You

When my life is not what I expected
The plans I made have failed
When there's nothing left to steal me away
Will You be enough for me?
Will my broken heart still sing?

Even if You take it all away
You'll never let me go
Take it all away
But I still know
That I'm Yours
I'm still Yours

♥

2010-04-09T00:25:00.004+08:00

It's amazing how life has brought us together as friends.

It's been an awesome journey.

Though the future's uncertain, I do pray that we remain as friends.

That we'll be there to pick each other up, to encourage each other, and to trust each other with secrets, to pray for one another.

Cheers to another awesome year of friendship!

-Friendship isn't bout who you've known the longest, it's about who came & never left.

We'll be a dream

2010-03-26T09:27:00.002+08:00

Do you remember the nights
We'd stay up just laughing
Smiling for hours
At anything
Remember the nights
We drove around crazy in love

Do you remember the nights
We made our way dreaming
Hoping of being
Someone big
We were so young then
We were too crazy
In love

When the lights go out
We'll be safe and sound
We'll take control of the world
Like it's all we have to hold on to
And we'll be a dream

How do I,

2010-03-21T23:47:00.001+08:00

Restore this bridge that was destroyed?

This bridge that linked me to you.

=)

2010-03-13T22:45:00.001+08:00

The End

2010-03-13T12:19:00.001+08:00

When this is over,

We'll be so much older.

2010-03-09T00:47:00.001+08:00

Cause everything you do and words you say
You know that it all takes my breath away

2010-03-09T00:28:00.001+08:00

Just when I thought

2010-03-08T00:19:00.002+08:00

Just when I thought that everyone would've given up on me,
Just when I thought that I've run out of tears to cry,
Just when I thought that I didn't have a friend who'd pray for me,
You just had to come and prove me wrong.
I love you.

If

2010-03-07T23:44:00.001+08:00

If only you knew, if only...

What kept me alive all this while.

2010-02-28T22:13:00.007+08:00

1 Peter 5:17

17 Cast all your anxiety on him because he cares for you.

2 Corinthians 12:9

9 But he said to me, "My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness." Therefore I will boast all the more gladly about my weaknesses, so that Christ's power may rest on me.

Matthew 5:13-16

13 "You are the salt of the earth, but if salt has lost its taste, how shall its saltiness be restored? It is no longer good for anything except to be thrown out and trampled under people’s feet.

14 "You are the light of the world. A city set on a hill cannot be hidden. 15 Nor do people light a lamp and put it under a basket, but on a stand, and it gives light to all in the house. 16In the same way, let your light shine before others, so that they may see your good works and give glory to your Father who is in heaven.

Matthew 28:16-20

16 Then the eleven disciples went to Galilee, to the mountain where Jesus had told them to go.17 When they saw him, they worshiped him; but some doubted. 18 Then Jesus came to them and said, "All authority in heaven and on earth has been given to me. 19 Therefore go and make disciples of all nations, baptizing them in the name of the Father and of the Son and of the Holy Spirit, 20 and teaching them to obey everything I have commanded you. And surely I am with you always, to the very end of the age."

Jeremiah 29:11

11 For I know the plans I have for you," declares the LORD, "plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.

I heard in a sermon before, that if you are always one to complain, it probably means that you've been thinking too much about yourself. And once you start putting others first, you find that you complain less, because you'd see how fortunate you are compared to others. How true is that? I see the joyful people, they're joyful because they spend so much time helping others that they don't really care about their problems all that much, because they know that they can count on God in times of crisis. Well, I guess I still have a lot to learn. Gotta learn to put others before myself, and try to shake off the devil and his book of lies. Loneliness is just gonna be another phase that and I know I'll make it through with God by my side.

What hurts the most

2010-02-18T00:31:00.001+08:00

I can take the rain on the roof of this empty house
That don’t bother me
I can take a few tears now and then and just let them out
I’m not afraid to cry every once in a while
Even though going on with you gone still upsets me
There are days every now and again I pretend I’m ok
But that’s not what gets me

What hurts the most
Was being so close
And having so much to say
And watching you walk away
And never knowing
What could have been
And not seeing that loving you
Is what I was tryin’ to do

It’s hard to deal with the pain of losing you everywhere I go
But I’m doin’ It
It’s hard to force that smile when I see our old friends and I’m alone
Still Harder
Getting up, getting dressed, livin’ with this regret
But I know if I could do it over
I would trade give away all the words that I saved in my heart
That I left unspoken

Not seeing that loving you
That’s what I was trying to do

:)

2010-02-15T00:04:00.000+08:00

This was probably taken months ago. But I still love this memory :D

2010-02-14T02:17:00.000+08:00

More memories...

2010-02-12T02:06:00.000+08:00

You guys make me smile.

2010-02-10T00:26:00.003+08:00

How I wish we could turn back time to back then

2010-02-08T02:16:00.001+08:00

2010-01-21T23:47:00.000+08:00

And I'll be here by the ocean
Just waiting for proof that there's
Sunsets and silhouette dreams
All my sand castles fall
Like the ashes of cigarettes
And every wave drags me to sea
I could stand here for hours
Just to ask God the question
"Is everyone here make-believe?"
With a tear in His voice
He said, "Son, that's the question."
Does this deafening silence mean nothing
To no one but me?

God sees.

2010-01-18T12:46:00.000+08:00

People are often unreasonable, illogical,
and self-centered;
Forgive them anyway.

If you are kind, People may accuse you
of selfish, ulterior motives;
Be kind anyway.

If you are successful, you will win some
false friends and some true enemies;
Succeed anyway.

If you are honest and frank,
people may cheat you;
Be honest and frank anyway.

What you spend years building, someone
could destroy overnight;
Build anyway.

If you find serenity and happiness,
they may be jealous;
Be happy anyway.

The good you do today,
people will often forget tomorrow;
Do good anyway.

Give the world the best you have,
and it may never be enough;
Give the world the best you've got anyway.

You see, in the FINAL analysis,
it is between you and God;
It was never between you and them anyway

What's wrong with,

2010-01-15T12:59:00.002+08:00

What's wrong with just getting by?

What's wrong with having just enough.

You always say, we must save up save up save up.

But when we die, doesn't it all return void?

Whatever we have saved up here on earth, we wouldn't be able to bring it to eternity.

Why do we need so much?

Why do we desire so much?

Money, a good career, money, more money, money money money.

Why does the world revolve around money?

Why?

Why can't we don't have the kind of job that requires us to be at work all the time, so we can spend more time with our family?

Though we might earn less, and though maybe sometimes we might encounter a crisis, shouldn't it be the time where we become more dependent on God?

If we're so rich, it gets to our head that we did it on our own, that we don't need God to provide.

Because we have it all planned out, "Wow, you see, because I saved so much, I managed to avoid this crisis here, blah blah blah"

But if we just have enough to get by, we would say something like, "I know I can trust God to provide me in this time, so that at the end of this trial we can stand and glorify God with an awesome testimony."

Shouldn't that be the way?

Rather than trying so hard to earn more money, that you forsake time spent with your family, that you skip church meetings and services because you have to be overseas working.

Why do people even do that?

Especially as Christians.

What makes us different from the rest of the world if we follow the standards of the world by trying to gain wordly possessions?

It's just so, disappointing, when I think about it.

It makes me sick to think what Christian parents are drilling into the minds of their children.

Nuff said, I'm just feeling so, so disappointed...

A few Thank Yous I have to say.

2010-01-02T05:42:00.003+08:00

I know I've done this before.

But there are a few more people whom I wanna appreciate (I wanted to do this before the end of 2009 but I procrasinated) :

Evie, Esther, Johnathan, Joshua and Gabriel Gnin,

who have sacrificed so much to take care of this region.

Really awesome to have you guys as leaders over me and just know that you guys are doing an awesome job!

The edge worship team, who took me into the ministry.

You guys are amazing and really anointed worshippers of God and it's been an honour playing my guitar with you all on stage.

Keep rocking out for Jesus!

My net (JJ, PinXuan, Marcia & Weeling)

Just wanna thank you all for being such good friends to me, for coming to net so faithfully, for your constant prayers and encouragements. I pray that 2010 will be the year where our net finally grows and explodes! Where we will have to multiply at least 3 times! That's what I'm believing God for!

My brothers from other mothers (James, GabHo, David, YanHan, Andes & Ivan)

You guys are my best friends in the world! Would never trade you for any other!

Really wanna thank you for all the fun times, the retardeness, the chillout sessions, and everything else!

There's just too many to mention.

I really thank God for giving me such friends, you guys are amazing and I really hope that we'll stay as great friends forever!

Not forgetting my sistersss! (Annabelle, Evelyn, Lavette, Pamela, Wendy, EstherLim & Lynette)

You gals have been the most encouraging people towards me ever!

I've really never had gal-friends in sec sch cos I was quite the loser (haha).

And so it's been a really interesting & new experience getting to know you all during 2009!

I also thank God for all the times spent together and the constant blurness you gals have sometimes.

I also hope that we all stay as great friends forever!

Of course, who can forget region 3/4!

The best region of VFC everrrr!

It's a great sign that we've been growing, not just in numbers, but we're growing in the Lord too!

Hope that we'll all catch the vision of 2010, and grow so much that we'll have to push region 1/2 into the overflow sector! That would be so awesome!

And I haven't forgotten my friends from school (Aiman, Lohes, Haziqah, Baini & Ain)

You guys have been the best company to have in school.

It was really an experience getting to know you all better during the Hainan trip.

As well as playing poker together, all the hang outs.

The stupid situations.

Laughing at lecturers.

Doing lame stuff together.

It's been awesome!

To the brotherhood [We can't call ourselves brothers 4 anymore cos we have so many!]

(Nicholas, Jonger, Asri, ZhangYi, KangLun & Vincent)

Though we haven't been able to meet up as a whole group, just wanna thank you all for being there for me in secondary school. For all the laughs, the lan gaming, the movies, everyday after school outings.

I love you guys and you all will forever have a special place in my heart. God Bless!

Ahh who can forget my disciple, Jeremy Yap.

Just wanna say I can see God doing a work in your life, do continue to be faithful in attending services.

It's great seeing you grow so much in the Lord.

May you become a great man of God as you mature in Him in 2010.

This is so true, Every single one.

2009-12-28T23:00:00.004+08:00

1. Guys may be flirting around all day, but before they go to sleep, they always think about the girl they truly care about....

2. Guys are more emotional than you think, if they loved you at one point, it'll take them a lot longer than you think to let you go, and it hurts every second that they try.

3. Guys go crazy over a girl's smile.

4. A guy who likes you wants to be the only guy you talk to.

5. Boyfriends need to be reassured often that they're still loved.

6. Guys don't care how gorgeous you are.

7. Giving a guy a hanging message like "You know what?..uh...nevermind.." would make him jump to a conclusion that is far from what you are thinking. And he'll assume he did something wrong and he'll obsess about it trying to figure it out.

8. If a guy tells you about his problems, he just needs someone to listen to him. You don't need to give advice.

9. A usual act that proves that the guy likes you is when he teases you.

10. Guys love you more than you love them

11. Guys use words like hot or cute to describe girls. They rarely use beautiful or gorgeous. If a guy uses that, he loves you or likes you a whole heck of a lot.

12. No matter how much guys talk about whats on the outside,personality is the key.

13. Guys think WAY too much. One small thing a girl does, even if she doesn't notice it can make the guy think about it for hours, trying to figure out what it meant but some know that it was just probably nothing so if it is supposed to mean something then make that meaning noticeable so that they can react on the spot.

14. If the guy does something stupid in front of the girl, he will think about it for the next couple days or until the next time he spends time with the girl.

15.If a guy looks unusually calm and laid back, he's probably faking it and he is really thinking about something.

16. When a guy says he is going crazy about the girl, he really is. Guys rarely say that.

17.When a guy asks you to leave him alone, he's just actually saying, "Please come and listen to me".

18. If a guy starts to talk seriously, listen to him. It doesn't happen that often, so when it does, you know something's up.

19. When a guy looks at you for longer than a second, he's definitely thinking something.

20. Guys really think that girls are strange and have unpredictable decisions and are MAD confusing but somehow are drawn even more to them.

21. No guy can handle all his problems on his own. He's just too stubborn to admit it.

22.NOT ALL GUYS ARE JACKASSES. Just because ONE is a jackass doesnt mean he represents ALL of them

23.When a guy sacrifices his sleep and health just to be with you, he really likes you and wants to be with you as much as possible.

24.Even if you dump a guy months ago and he loved you he probably still does and if he had one wish it would be you to come back into his life.

2010

2009-12-25T00:47:00.002+08:00

2009 was the craziest year so far...

I shudder to think what 2010 would bring me.

New friends?

New situations?

Some I'm looking forward to.

Other's I'm just dreading.

Well, just know that I won't be making any new year's resolutions this time.

Maybe just one.

And it's to be more sensitive to others.

Oh and maybe to be able to actually save money.

On the way down, I saw You.

2009-12-22T02:28:00.005+08:00

Sick and Tired of this world

There's no more air

Trippin' over myself

Goin' nowhere

Waiting

Suffocating

No direction

And I took a dive

And on the way down

I saw you

And you saved me

From myself

And I won't forget

The way you loved me

On the way down

I almost fell right through

But I held onto you

I've been wondering why

It's only me

Have you always been inside

Waiting to breathe

It's alright

Sunlight

On my face

I wake up and yeah, I'm alive

I was so afraid

Of going under

But now

The weight of the world

Feels like nothing, no, nothing

Down, down, down

You're all I wanted

Down, down, down

You're all I needed

Down, down, down

You're all I wanted

You're all I needed

And I won't forget the way you loved me

All that I wanted

All that I needed

Down, down, down

But I held onto you

Down, down, down

But I held onto you

On the verge of a breakdown,

2009-12-19T00:33:00.001+08:00

you saved me.

2009-12-12T22:57:00.000+08:00

I'm sorry I'm not who you want me to be.

Quiz thingy.

2009-12-12T01:27:00.002+08:00

I was tagged by Baini to do this quiz. Here goes...

1. Are you single?
A: Yeap.

2. Are you happy?
A: Yea, you can say so.

3. Are you bored?
A: Very.

4. Are you fair?
A: No.

5. Are you indian?
A: No.

6. Are you stupid?
A:No.

7. Are you honest?
A: Depends.

8. Are you irish?
A: No.

9. Are you nice?
A: Definitely.

10.Are you asian?
A: Duhzzz.

Ten facts.
Full name: Arthur Phua ___ ___
Nickname: Turtle (Thur thur)
Birthplace: Selangor
Hair colour: Brownish Black.
Hair style: Punk (Not ah beng-ish)
Eye colour: Black
DOB: 21st December 1991
Mood: Cranky
Favourite colour: Black
One place you wished to visit: New York City.

This or That.
Love or lust: Love.
Cats or dogs: Cats.
Best friends or regular friends: Best friends.
Creamy or crunchy: Crunchy.
Pencil or pen: Pen.
Wild night out or romantic in: Romantic in.
Money or happiness: Happiness.
Night or day: Night.
IM or phone: IM

Have you ever.
Been caught sneaking out: Yes.
Seen a polar bear: Yeah.
Done something you regret: Yea.
Jumpin: Yeah, at least once a week.
Eat an entire Jaw breaker?: Dunno.
Been caught naked: Err, no?
Wanted gf back?: Never had one.
Cried because lost a person forever: No.
Wanted to disappear: Too many times.

Preference of love.
Smile or eyes: Can I choose both?
Light or dark hair: Dark.
Hugs or kisses: Hugs.
Shorter or taller: Shorter :P
Intelligence or attraction: Have a fairly good amount of both qualities.
Violent or pathetic: Ehhh, both are too extremes, I'm not choosing.
Older or younger: Younger.
Outgoing or quiet: Depending on occasion.
Sweet or bad: Sweet!!

I won't tag anyone to do this quiz.

Shout,

2009-12-12T00:18:00.000+08:00

Shout!

If the devil shouts at you,

Shout back even more aggressively.

Don't let anyone steal your shout.

This is so true, even though it's a Facebook thing.

2009-12-11T12:25:00.000+08:00

Recap

2009-12-09T23:53:00.002+08:00

I totally forgot how it went down during media fast.

I only remember the big events.

180 was awesome! Great dance performance, great worship. Though I had to do ushering duty zzz.

Had Astons dinner. Black pepper chicken!

Went gyming with Joshua Ong and Yan Han the next day.

Had lunch at Astons(again), without Joshua but Andes joined us.

Had beef this time.

Edge conference.

A powerful life changing 3 days dedicated to God.

Had lots of fun.

The T-shirts rock!

Worship was off the hook.

The preachers were full of anointing!

The workshops were power packed.

I did ushering for one of the nights and my did I enjoy myself that night.

Ushering is so fun at youth services.

Had to stay back to tear down after the whole conference.

Term tests are over!

Today was my last paper!

Came home to eat lunch before heading out to Lynette and Lavette's house to chill(melt).

Had a good time I guess.

Well I'm just glad things are kinda stabilized now ;)

Be on your guard.

2009-12-08T23:13:00.000+08:00

Everyone, remember that the devil attacks the moment you are spiritually 'up'.

Do be cautious, my friends, do not waiver.

1 Corinthians 13

2009-12-07T12:24:00.002+08:00

Love

¹If I speak in the tongues of men and of angels, but have not love, I am only a resounding gong or a clanging cymbal. ²If I have the gift of prophecy and can fathom all mysteries and all knowledge, and if I have a faith that can move mountains, but have not love, I am nothing. ³If I give all I possess to the poor and surrender my body to the flames, but have not love, I gain nothing.

⁴Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. ⁵It is not rude, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. ⁶Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. ⁷It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres.

⁸Love never fails. But where there are prophecies, they will cease; where there are tongues, they will be stilled; where there is knowledge, it will pass away. ⁹For we know in part and we prophesy in part, ¹⁰but when perfection comes, the imperfect disappears. ¹¹When I was a child, I talked like a child, I thought like a child, I reasoned like a child. When I became a man, I put childish ways behind me. ¹²Now we see but a poor reflection as in a mirror; then we shall see face to face. Now I know in part; then I shall know fully, even as I am fully known.

¹³And now these three remain: faith, hope and love. But the greatest of these is love.

Ephesians 5

2009-12-07T01:03:00.001+08:00

¹Be imitators of God, therefore, as dearly loved children ²and live a life of love, just as Christ loved us and gave himself up for us as a fragrant offering and sacrifice to God.

³But among you there must not be even a hint of sexual immorality, or of any kind of impurity, or of greed, because these are improper for God's holy people. ⁴Nor should there be obscenity, foolish talk or coarse joking, which are out of place, but rather thanksgiving. ⁵For of this you can be sure: No immoral, impure or greedy person—such a man is an idolater—has any inheritance in the kingdom of Christ and of God.⁶Let no one deceive you with empty words, for because of such things God's wrath comes on those who are disobedient. ⁷Therefore do not be partners with them.

⁸For you were once darkness, but now you are light in the Lord. Live as children of light ⁹(for the fruit of the light consists in all goodness, righteousness and truth) ¹⁰and find out what pleases the Lord. ¹¹Have nothing to do with the fruitless deeds of darkness, but rather expose them. ¹²For it is shameful even to mention what the disobedient do in secret. ¹³But everything exposed by the light becomes visible, ¹⁴for it is light that makes everything visible. This is why it is said:
"Wake up, O sleeper,
rise from the dead,
and Christ will shine on you."

¹⁵Be very careful, then, how you live—not as unwise but as wise, ¹⁶making the most of every opportunity, because the days are evil. ¹⁷Therefore do not be foolish, but understand what the Lord's will is. ¹⁸Do not get drunk on wine, which leads to debauchery. Instead, be filled with the Spirit. ¹⁹Speak to one another with psalms, hymns and spiritual songs. Sing and make music in your heart to the Lord, ²⁰always giving thanks to God the Father for everything, in the name of our Lord Jesus Christ.

²¹Submit to one another out of reverence for Christ.

2009-11-04T23:59:00.000+08:00

But when you are tempted, he will also provide a way out so that you can stand up under it – 1Cor10:13

2009-11-04T17:49:00.001+08:00

Everything tastes bitter

2009-11-04T00:09:00.000+08:00

Goodbye.

2009-11-02T21:18:00.000+08:00

Help me...

It's like a whirlwind inside my head.

2009-11-02T00:18:00.002+08:00

No feelings.

No emotions.

I'm just numb to everything around.

To all you haters out there :

2009-10-31T12:47:00.002+08:00

Don't judge me unless you know me.

You're either a friend, or a stranger.

I don't make enemies.

The day I thought I'd never get through,

2009-10-31T01:20:00.000+08:00

I got over you

How I love you

2009-10-26T22:35:00.000+08:00

How my soul longs for you

To be with you

Adore you

Nothing more i want to do

Than to sing to you

2009-10-26T21:24:00.001+08:00

Is it possible

2009-10-26T14:39:00.001+08:00

To be best friends but of different cliques?

Go away.

2009-10-24T00:28:00.000+08:00

Leave me ALONE.

I guess

2009-10-23T11:12:00.002+08:00

Love is the only thing we live in this world for.

Sweet Memories

2009-10-21T13:07:00.001+08:00

Emotions never felt before

Well,

2009-10-13T02:09:00.002+08:00

It's almost been a year since that fateful day.

Many things have happened.

Cousin's gone to Uni.

Stanley joined the youth ministry.

I finally made it into the regional and the edge worship ministry.

I guess, we've all moved on.

And are all looking forward to that day where we'll see you in heaven.

Wow, it's been a year.

It sure didn't seem that long.

But I guess, I'll miss your presence a lot.

Hope the past year in heaven has been enjoyable.

To eternity (:

A repeat of the post dated 15th October 2008.

2009-10-13T02:08:00.001+08:00

Ok, so what we feared the most has finally come to past.
The news came as we were on the way home to Singapore earlier today.
I'm guessing that dad's mind must have been in a whirl the moment he heard the news.
It also made the trip up to Malaysia worthwhile.
At least we got to spend time with him in his final days.
All the suffering has finally left him for good.
He's with God now, rejoicing in heaven with the angels.
He got saved about 3 years back I think.
I'm not too sure about the details, I was just glad that he finally gave his life to Christ.
I don't think that I have appreciated him enough during his time on earth.
He was a good man, always looking out for the family, and making tough choices for us.
He used to cross highways the way we cross normal roads just to get to the market and buy breakfast back for all of us, despite his age.
He walked slowly, but he always made it back safely, by God's grace.
Even when he's hearing became weaker, he still continued to buy breakfast for everyone, walking the 1km+ to the market every morning.
When his vision became impaired, he still continued to do the same, all out of love.
But what did I do?
I complained the food wasn't nice, Singapore's breakfast is better.
I didn't respond when he spoke to me.
I didn't bother to learn Cantonese to communicate with him.
I didn't spend enough time with him, thats for sure.
Every time I went up to Malaysia to visit him and my relatives, he would give me $50 SGD to spend, saying that I was too skinny and needed to eat more.
Yes, I spent the money eating, but I took the money for granted and always expected him to give and give.
Throughout the time spent in Malaysia this time, I felt such a strong feeling of sadness, as I realised that this was the man who used to look after me since I was a baby.
He was the one who watched me grow up and always did what was best for me.
He was the one who always rejoiced and smiled every time he saw me.
And not once have I appreciated him for that.
Like they say, you never know what you got till its gone.
And now, all I can do is hold back the tears and be strong.
While this phrase keeps ringing in my head.

All of my life
In every season
You are still God
I have a reason to sing
I have a reason to worship

Because I know that he's finally out of the pain and suffering, and I can rejoice in this situation because I know that he's with our Father in heaven.
In every season, He is still God, He will never fail, He has a plan.
Even when Grandpa's gone, life still has to move on, we can't mourn forever.
We can look forward to the day when we meet with him in heaven.
Till then, we will carry on living for God, because He will never fail us.

Thank you everybody for showing so much support to me and my family.
I really appreciate it.
Do keep the family in prayer.
And may God help us to be strong.

Will you miss me if I leave?

2009-10-10T02:19:00.003+08:00

So many things coming.

So many bad and horrible things.

It's one storm after another.

A typhoon, then a tornado, followed by a hurricane, and then a whirlwind.

I feel like I'm being tossed about, and there's nothing I can do.

I wanna run away.

Take refuge till the storms blow over.

I don't think I'll have the strength to face any storm head on.

I've grown so tired.

The only thing keeping me alive is....

ღloveღ

Wow

2009-10-07T01:10:00.001+08:00

Proverbs 14:29
A patient man has great understanding,
but a quick-tempered man displays folly.

Matthew 7:1-5
Judge not, that you be not judged. For with the judgment you pronounce you will be judged, and with the measure you use it will be measured to you. Why do you see the speck that is in your brother's eye, but do not notice the log that is in your own eye? Or how can you say to your brother, ‘Let me take the speck out of your eye,’ when there is the log in your own eye? You hypocrite, first take the log out of your own eye, and then you will see clearly to take the speck out of your brother's eye.

I need to take refuge...

2009-10-04T21:38:00.002+08:00

And I realised,

2009-10-03T00:42:00.001+08:00

That I was after something too far fetched.
It was impossible.
Now I'm back at square one.
Trying to find a reason to love again.

How I lie.

2009-10-02T11:24:00.000+08:00

You lie inside your head. Your thoughts confuse you, and you would rather be anyone else than yourself. You convince yourself of things that aren't true. You might think you are ugly, stupid, mean, or annoying, when you are actually none of those things. You constantly put yourself down and convince yourself that you don't deserve anything good. You don't hear compliments and when people give you one, you deny it. You give others the compliments you wish you could give yourself, but when you think of who you are, only the negative comes to mind. It is possible you are paranoid about what others are saying about you behind your back, or are trying to match yourself to an impossible standard. There might have been someone in your life who put you down so much you actually started to believe it. Trust me, if you think you are a bad person, you most likely aren't. Bad people think they are good, otherwise they wouldn't be as mean.

You lie because you mistake it for the truth. When others tell you positive things about yourself, you often just believe they are lying to make you feel better. In actuality, they are telling the truth and you are lying to yourself. Your weakness are the people who don't openly compliment you, but truly believe you are amazing anyway. Their compliments are along the lines of "You make me feel happy" or "You are my everything." A lot of people find these cheesy, but these are the compliments that allow you to feel good about yourself for who you are. When people tell you good things about themselves and tell you it's all because of you, the dark lies you tell yourself seem to float away.

Exactly. Accurate to the max.

2009-09-29T13:06:00.000+08:00

INFP - The Idealist

You are a special and sensitive individual that needs a career which is more than just a job. You need to feel that what you do everyday has special meaning and can live your life in accordance to your strong value system. You are focused on constant growth and have a positive outlook on life. Because you are driven to do find meaning and purpose in your work, you will be happiest in careers where you are allowed to work towards those values you hold and towards the greater good of humanity as a whole. Many of the great writers of the world have been INFPs.

Some of your personality traits include:

* Strong value systems
* Warmly interested in people
* Service-oriented, usually putting the needs of others above your own
* Loyal and devoted to people and causes
* Future-oriented
* Growth-oriented; always want to be growing in a positive direction
* Creative and inspirational
* Flexible and laid-back, unless a ruling principle is violated
* Sensitive and complex
* Dislike dealing with details and routine work
* Original and individualistic - "out of the mainstream"
* Excellent written communication skills
* Prefer to work alone, and may have problems working on teams
* Value deep and authentic relationships
* Want to be seen and appreciated for who you are

Some of your suggested careers are:

* Writer
* Counselor / Social Worker
* Teacher / Professor
* Psychologist
* Psychiatrist
* Musician
* Clergy / Religious Workers

2009-09-29T12:42:00.001+08:00

My life's nothing without you.

Cannons

2009-09-28T00:37:00.001+08:00

All glory, honor, power is Yours forever amen.

Contemplator

2009-09-24T22:49:00.001+08:00

You are likely a deep thinker who likes to go inside your own head. You are likely more intelligent than the average person, and possess a need to retreat to your own "think zone" in order to recharge. You might not always speak your thoughts even thought you know you know the answer. Instead you wait for someone to ask you what your thoughts are.

So close,

2009-09-24T00:39:00.001+08:00

So close to becoming who I was before.

I'm scared.

2009-09-22T01:18:00.000+08:00

See the diversity...

Love

2009-09-18T03:11:00.001+08:00

Arthur got a message that on this day, God wants him to know...
... that it's OK.

Just rest for a moment. It's OK. Yes, things are crazy, yes, the world is going nuts. Yet, deep underneath the stormy waves, there, in the core of your being, there is pure silence, pure love. And ... it's ... just ... OK.

I guess,

2009-09-18T00:27:00.000+08:00

I shouldn't have put so much trust in you.

So come home running,

2009-09-15T23:30:00.000+08:00

So come home running

His arms are open wide

His name is Jesus

He understands

He is the answer

You are looking for

So come home running

Just as you are

2009-09-12T15:10:00.002+08:00

Isaiah 43

The Savior of Israel

1 But now, O Jacob, listen to the Lord who created you.
O Israel, the one who formed you says,
“Do not be afraid, for I have ransomed you.
I have called you by name; you are mine.

2 When you go through deep waters,
I will be with you.
When you go through rivers of difficulty,
you will not drown.
When you walk through the fire of oppression,
you will not be burned up;
the flames will not consume you.

3 For I am the Lord, your God,
the Holy One of Israel, your Savior.
I gave Egypt as a ransom for your freedom;
I gave Ethiopia and Seba in your place.

A few thanks I have to express here :

1. Wendy Goh, for not giving up on me.

2. David Lim, for being a great friend.

3. Esther Lim, for comforting me when I wept.

4. Andes Tan, Evelyn Pek, Lavette Chua, James Pek, Pamela Quek for just being my friend and sticking with me though I may be a jerk at times.

5. My dear net, JJ, Marcia and Pin Xuan for always being so supportive.

6. My brother, Stanley, for always understanding me.

Thank you so much, my dear friends.

Thanks for not giving up on me.

Thanks for all the counsel.

I love you all.

2009-09-09T00:18:00.001+08:00

Let's take what hurts, and write it all down.
On these paper walls, and this empty house.
And when our ink runs out, we'll burn it to the ground.

Way away

2009-09-07T02:17:00.000+08:00

Away from here I'll be.

And the greatest of these is Love.

Wish List (More like "Stuff that I'm saving up for")

Dedicated to Jonger, @jonger026

Love,

After the encounter,

Desire

Note to self

And He said

Friendship

Forgive

Attitude

Help me, Lord.

Past Glories

Yours to take.

Nightlights

All that I can really do now.

Forgiven and Loved

In His Presence

Currently My Favourite Song!

WE.WERE.EPIC

Just a while more..

Arthur, Y U SO LIDDAT.

2011 so far

A new phase

Officially Missing You

Confused

Voices

1 Corinthians 13 : 4-7

I am gonna

We are the world

Make my day.

I'm Still Yours

♥

We'll be a dream

How do I,

=)

The End

Just when I thought

If

What kept me alive all this while.

What hurts the most

:)

This was probably taken months ago. But I still love this memory :D

More memories...

You guys make me smile.

How I wish we could turn back time to back then

God sees.

What's wrong with,

A few Thank Yous I have to say.

This is so true, Every single one.

2010

On the way down, I saw You.

On the verge of a breakdown,

Quiz thingy.

Shout,

This is so true, even though it's a Facebook thing.

Recap

Be on your guard.

1 Corinthians 13

Love

Love

Ephesians 5

1Be imitators of God, therefore, as dearly loved children 2and live a life of love, just as Christ loved us and gave himself up for us as a fragrant offering and sacrifice to God.

It's like a whirlwind inside my head.

To all you haters out there :

The day I thought I'd never get through,

How I love you

Is it possible

Go away.

I guess

Sweet Memories

Well,

A repeat of the post dated 15th October 2008.

Will you miss me if I leave?

Wow

I need to take refuge...

And I realised,

How I lie.

Exactly. Accurate to the max.

Cannons

¹Be imitators of God, therefore, as dearly loved children ²and live a life of love, just as Christ loved us and gave himself up for us as a fragrant offering and sacrifice to God.