a quick recap

Heard part of this song on a TV program earlier.
Lyrics are so like what I feel about her

[Chorus]
I don't want another pretty face
I don't want just anyone to hold
I don't want my love to go to waste
I want you and your beautiful soul
You're the one I wanna chase
You're the one I wanna hold
I wont let another minute go to waste
I want you and your beautiful soul

I know that you are something special
To you I'd be always faithful
I want to be what you always needed
Then I hope you'll see the heart in me

I don't want another pretty face
I don't want just anyone to hold
I don't want my love to go to waste
I want you and your beautiful soul
You're the one I wanna chase
You're the one I wanna hold
I wont let another minute go to waste
I want you and your beautiful soul

Your beautiful soul, yeah
You might need time to think it over
But im just fine moving forward
I'll ease your mind
If you give me the chance
I will never make you cry c`mon lets try

I don't want another pretty face
I don't want just anyone to hold
I don't want my love to go to waste
I want you and your beautiful soul
You're the one I wanna chase
You're the one I wanna hold
I wont let another minute go to waste
I want you and your beautiful soul

Am I crazy for wanting you
Baby do you think you could want me too
I don't wanna waste your time
Do you see things the way I do
I just wanna know if you feel it too
There is nothing left to hide

I don't want another pretty face
I don't want just anyone to hold
I don't want my love to go to waste
I want you and your beautiful soul
You're the one I wanna chase
You're the one I wanna hold
I wont let another minute go to waste
I want you and your beautiful soul

You beautiful soul, yeah

So back to reality,
Ubin yesterday was good!
Besides the weather and muddy conditions.
Was really challenging and I must say I havent had this much of a challenge in years.
Cycling's straining, but beneficial.
And today, went back to Peirce, hoping to meet some teachers,
but disappointing, so many of them left so early.
only managed to meet up with my DNT teacher,
DNT was one of the subjects which I failed in O'levels,
so was rather paiseh =X
And net group,
was pretty good,
good lesson, good fellowship as usual,
played monopoly disney version after net,
I got the character of sleeping beauty cos i love to sleep =P
And what else?
hmm....
I can't think of anything else,
Heard that NUS service was good!
praise the Lord!
And edge tmr,
will probably slack the whole day before going,
and now that its the holidays,
I should be given more freedom tmr, so ya,
well, I guess that pretty much sums my whole week,
take care, God bless.

Holidays!

Ok so finally the long awaited holidays have arrived.
But later than everyone else.
Just wanna lay back and slack like nobody's business.
Today's paper was not too bad,
I think I stand a good chance of passing,
However, yesterday's CARC paper was screwed...
I'm so not going to swensons =X
Anyway I'm so glad that there's no more 'stress'
And I can focus on other stuff now,
at least for the next 2 weeks.

Windows Live Messenger is giving me lots of problems...
Dunno why.
It hates vista i guess.
And now will just probably spend most of the time playing Fifa 08!
More time to devote to God also, and to my guitar.
Can't wait for the weekends to hang out with church mates.
Can't wait for Edge, and net group, and Sunday services.

Just wanna sleep now,
but the post exam stress is killing me,
can't get to sleep at all.
I'm afraid I'll do badly for PRSP and CARC.
Then I'll have to do supp paper, which totally sucks.

Anyway, I think thats about it,
Shan't post about love today cos its supposed to be a happy occasion.

Cause she's the reason for the teardrops on my guitar
The only thing that keeps me wishing on a wishing star
She's the song in the car I keep singing don't know why I do
She walks by me,
Can't she tell that I can't breathe?
And there she goes, so perfectly
The kind of flawless I wish I could be.

Nothing much as usual....

So my msn status is set to (Sleeping),
but here I am, blogging,
Nothing much to post about.
Monday, came to submit PRSP assignment 2,
got back my assignment 1, and I got a C+!
haha not bad i bluffed my way through but i feel that Dr Eng was really a nice guy when he marked it.

And so, tuesday, did some CARC at home, then slacked and slacked....

Wednesday, went to school to study CARC with Aiman, Ain, Haziqah and Lohes.
We took quite long finding a spot in the library, and when we finally got down to studying,
I felt that I couldn't keep my mind on CARC.
The whole time I was doing the tutorials,
my mind was somewhere else, and only God knows where.
Studied for about an hour before going to Bedok Reservoir to hang out, was friggin hot and humid there.
So didn't stay for long.
Went back to school's stadium and slacked and slacked, den went home.

Thursday. Which was yesterday.
Funny. I don't remember anything that happened yesterday.
Maybe cos I didn't do anything the whole day?
Cant be.
Hmm....

And today.
C-maths Exam!
Was pretty retarded, the first question.
Truth table, I forgot everything I learned on that.
The next 3 questions, SETS!
Super easy topic, although question 2 was quite a crazy question.
Other than that, I think I stand a chance to pass C maths this term.
After that went to yishun, wanting to eat at Long John Silver's, but it was full, so went to BK instead.
After that went home and slacked.
And went for missions rally!
Was 40 mins late due to my dad.
Said he wanted to shower and would only take 5 minutes but ended up taking 20mins instead.
That's the Phua family guys for you, sad to say I'm not much different.
Missions rally was good, the speaker was really good, and although I missed almost the whole first part, the last sentence he said was pretty powerful, and provoking me to think.
He said "I can't be just sitting there"
Meaning that, there's much more to life than just sitting there.
So many of my friends have tasted the life of total freedom.
But for me, I still have many boundaries,
cos my parents don't trust me at all.
But, all is not lost,
I will find a way to gain their trust and let them give me the freedom I deserve.

There's so much to life, I just realised,
there are many ups and downs,
one moment you may be at your peak,
and the next moment you're in the pits.
Its really interesting how life brings you on a unique journey,
an experience that no one else can have but you.
There's love, there's fun, there's money, there's adventure all waiting out there for us.
I just wanna break free and grab a hold of that future that awaits me.
What is destiny?
Well, tell me when you find out.

I saw her on the bus the other day
It just so happened that she boarded the same bus as me
I was sitting near the front
With the seat next to me available
There I was, hoping for a miracle
But instead, she walked by just like that
Without noticing me
Without acknowledging my existence
Oh my heart melted when I saw her
Oh how my heart torn into a million pieces
This shall not spell my defeat
I will find a way to her
Even if it takes forever.
LOVE, the mother of all heartaches.

Ok, so I really thank God for that verse in the previous post.
If not I will be feeling dam depressed now.

On the brighter side, Alan helped me out with java!
Learned quite a bit, but not enough to complete assignment 2.
Intensive java programming gonna go on tomorrow afternoon.
Procrastination always leaves you in panic, from what I've experienced.
But it always give me the motivation to do because of the panic.
The adrenaline rush never fails to surprise me.
Always helps to get the job done well.

Anyways, went down to yishun at 12.30pm today to unlock the building.
Went there with the intention to do java.
Was searching all over google for a sample java code for the TicTacToe question.
But no results.
And, our region won the fun relay!
And did pretty well in the other events!
Good job!
Though I wasn't there, I feel proud to be part of region 3/4, just cos of you guys.
Edge was good, with the question and answer thing, especially the last question.
And tonight was Jeremy and Penny's last day as youth ministers! T-T
So sad, gonna miss having them at edge.
Jeremy Seaward is gonna take over for a period of time.

Net group was also really good!
Combined net!
Really good lesson, really good fellowship and food!
Mostly junk food, expect to see more pimples on my face...

Java Java Java Java Java Java Java Java Java Java Java Java Java Java Java Java Java

I still love her,
even after whats been said earlier
Now the real question is,
is it just a crush,
or real love?
She doesn't even notice me,
But I can't help but stare whenever I look,
Cos she's just too attractive,
which means that there should be others who share the same feelings as me,
what should I do?
Should I go talk to her?
Or should I just back off and forget about her being mine?

Matthew 5:43-48

Love for Enemies

"You have heard that it was said, 'Love your neighbor and hate your enemy.' But I tell you: Love your enemies and pray for those who persecute you, that you may be sons of your Father in heaven. He causes his sun to rise on the evil and the good, and sends rain on the righteous and the unrighteous. If you love those who love you, what reward will you get? Are not even the tax collectors doing that? And if you greet only your brothers, what are you doing more than others? Do not even pagans do that? Be perfect, therefore, as your heavenly Father is perfect.

0.o

So Eugenia says she's gonna give me a brand new PSP if I get an 'A' for science O'levels.
A1 or A2.
Praying so hard for it now.
Today, WDS presentation.
Nothin much.
Played games that requires you to think out of the box,
now I know that I might me the slowest...
Although I managed to figure some out by an hour.
Yes, that long.
Looking forward to holidays.
No school next week, study week.
However we need to go back to hand in our PRSP assignment 2 and to do the evaluation.
Having tuition again tomorrow.
Hope to gain more knowledge so I can get an 'A' for science.
I might need some extra help as well, any volunteers?
I know I suck at science, so don't laugh.
Anyway I hope to get that free PSP by any means.

I love her so much,
But I cant have her.
I wanna spend all my days with her,
But will she accept me?
Every time I look at her,
I can't take my eyes off her.
Is this love?
Or just mere infatuation?
Please let it not be another false hope.
I cant stand rejection.
But I just wanna be with her.

CGS

Haha CGS was really good tonight!
Really powerful message.
And lots of lameness.

Seven types of vision people.
Thin people, fat people, good looking people, etc.
-James

Different types of vision.
Heat vision, x-ray vision, lazer vision, etc
-James again

Where are your eyes set upon?
My head. =P

You don't go fishing in your living room at home!
I have a fish tank =P

Evie probably fishes at home... :X

And thus sayeth the Lord, "thou shalt breathe air"

Don't aim your arrow at the trees cos you might hit another Singaporean.

If you wanna shoot your own foot aim for the ground.

Oh and I got my first 'A' in poly!
Communication skills!
haha if only every subject was as easy.

So Jeremy and Penny asked me to aim for 8 'A's in poly.

Lame stuff in church as well as at edge.
Chris forgot the commands!
Paper airplanes for the airshow.
Trash bags used as parachutes
& The fireworks was just a flash animation.
Really cracked me up a lot.

" Which year did sir stamford raffles found singapore? "

" LEFT EAR! LEFT EAR! "
-James once again.

That is why I never regret going to church.
Haha peace

Nothing better to do...

Really bored now....
Have no idea why I decided to come to school so early.
When tutorial starts at 3pm.
Ahh....
Bored...
Anyways, the CGS yesterday was good!
I was late, and missed worship, but the message was really good!
And for tonight, I'm an usher, but hopefully I'm the usher that takes offering, and not the greeter...
Boring job...
JiaJia and Justin look so busy, but in fact they are just blogging.
Like me XD.
Now waiting for the IISO lab to start, although my group's presentation is done, I wanna see how the other groups do.
And, erm....
I've finally been invited to join the adults worship practice!!! Wooooohooooo!
But unfortunately I have to wait till the dreaded O'levels are finished....
O'levels suck big time, and to those who are getting their O'level chinese results, all the best! Hope that your parents are understanding, and you can have peace...
Lol.
I really need a new wallet, and earpiece.
I want a PSP also!!!
I want new shoes!
I want new computer games!
I want a new computer mouse!
I want an antivirus software!
I want to sleep!
I want to hangout with friends without parents nagging me to come back!
I want this, I want that, I know I'm a spoiled brat.
Haha thats just me....
blah blah blah just wasting time now...
this post should end, but its not....
I'm still posting....
hahaha...
read on....
hahaha
continue reading....
hahaha
I'm bored.....
hahahah
hahahaha
hahahaha
hahahahahha
zzzzzzzZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZ

Nothingness.

So i finished watching the whole series of Death Note anime yesterday, felt quite sad as my favourite character died, although he was the bad guy, haha.
And WDS, haiz, no content, only layout.
Submission tmr 5pm.
I'm so dead.
Completed GTA San Andreas as well, didn't end the way I expected though.
So today, Aiman asked C197 to wear either red or white for national day, cos we don't have school tmr, but in the end we didn't get to take photos! So wasted la.
After WDS lab went with Aiman, Lohes, Ain, Haziqah and Evan to eat at long john silver!
So random.
Nothing to blog about.
Haziqah asked me to say something positive about her here.
So I'll just say +,
Cos a + sign symbolizes positive.
yeah.
whatever -.-
oh and here's the videos of the mass dance we did in CMSK class last week.
Super funny.
In the mass dance video you cant hear the music, only Jian Yu's instructions. LOL!

Feeling down? Lost a friend? Watch this!

Ok whatever.

So haziqah says she wants to see her name on my blog...

Ok there it is, nice and big so she wont complain. And its her favourite colour.
Ok whatever.

Anyway it was my first time at the leaders caregroup tonight!
It was really good.
I enjoyed myself a lot!
But mum says i cant attend any more until after O levels.
Darn it.

Anyway had IISO presentation in school today, a major screwup cos Aijin asked me a question of which I have NO IDEA how to answer at all, so Zong Ming had to answer for me. Which would have lost me a bountiful supply of marks.
But CMSK conversation 'test' went well.
Topic was on animal abuse and abandonment.
The teacher said very good.

Ok no more news.
Day of his power this Friday! I'm an usher!
Edge parade this saturday!
And Youth band practice on Sunday!
Weeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee OMG I'm super hyper now la

The Mummy!!!

Ok so I watched The Mummy : Tomb of the dragon emperor earlier today. It was a good show, with great effects and Jet Li. Lol. Quite a bit of humour here and there as well, overall it was a good movie. Next movie to look out for, Death Race.
Trailer looks awesome... Has an uncanny relation to the movie 'The condemned'.
Its a movie about getting the worst prisoners to take part in a race, in which they drive custom made cars with weapons on them and they have to eliminate their opponents, which are other criminals serving their jail term, eliminate as in kill. And whoever makes finishes the race alive gets to go free. Cool huh?

Another movie would be Eagle eye, dont know how to explain, but looks really cool.