FAIL! HAHAHAHAHA

Ok, this week was good!
Cousins came down from KL from the weekend, had lotsa fun,
as well as red packets!

Thursday, went to school for 20mins, after that headed down to meet David, Ivan and James to buy MrPekChek's new acoustic guitar!
A nice maestro package sale thingy.
After that watched inkheart, not a bad show, quite entertaining.

Friday, arranged to meet my net at CompassPoint to come to my house for games, and only Joel and Lavette turned up...
JJ and Johnathon came shortly after, followed by Sheryl.
Played bball at the court.
Johnathon Gnin's net vs Esther's net.
We almost won, but John's net had their superstar. Rawr XD.
Played something called the water game, didn't get to play but I heard that my brother had to drink over 10 cups of water as a forfeit.
Haha.
Dinner at my house!
The place was packed to the brim, almost 30 people squeezing into my house.
Dinner was good, Nasi Lemak and Turkey!
Net was at Sheryl's house.
Very good net session (slightly biased cos I taught the lesson)
And I have officially taken over my net!
Can't wait to rise to the position like Evie, den can slack haha.
But for now, gotta work hard to have our nets multiply!
Whhheeeeeeeeeee!

Today, failed badly, haha FAIL!
First off I only slept for 4 hours, so I was super groggy during tennis.
And I accidentally hit the ball at my face, causing a cut on my lip.
Tennis FAIL!
After that slacked around abit, and went to meet Ivan and David to go to Sembawang.
Took a wrong bus, and ended up having to take a cab there.
Bus route knowledge FAIL!
Learned a new song today, actually was supposed to be 2 new songs but they didn't have enough time.
But I know howta play both songs already.
So gonna wait for next month to learn "Today is the day" by Lincoln Brewster!
Me likey!
haha
Ok, here are some videos of people who had similar failures like me today.

Counting down to my 200th post

If games and movies can be rated M18 for violence and coarse language,
schools in Singapore should be given an M18 rating as well.

So, Chinese New Year wasn't good this year, a 5/10 if I were to rate it.
If my cousins didn't come down from Malaysia it would have been a BIG FAT ZERO

So, Sunday night was bowling!
Blogged about it already but shall go into full details.
We started off good!
Not we, my cousins and my bro were good at the start.
I was hitting gutter balls for the first few throws.
Everyone except me got at least 100 for the first game.
Next game I managed to get myself a 109, but my cousin owned me with a score of 150+
And there were two teenagers who were playing in the lane next to us, they were pros!
They had all the gear, the custom bowling balls, and could curl the ball real well.
They had a score of at least 200+ for each game.
So demoralizing.

Monday, was the worse day of the year so far, woke up at 11.30am, just when the relatives from my mum's side arrived.
Rushed my shower, when out and greeted them, and didn't have lunch together cos there wasn't enough space.
And I'm pretty annoyed with the fact that some idiots can't grow up.
Fullstop.
I don't wanna elaborate further.

Today was better, woke up at 12pm.
Went to my aunt's house for visitation, had 2 lunches, one was chicken rice at home, another was fried bee hoon at aunt's house.
Went to Buangkok to meet Gabriel, Andes, David, Esther and Janilyn for bball.
Played with some strangers who wanted to share the court.
After that had subway at CP!
Den wii at Andes's!
Came home and had a slice of pizza, + lots of ground nuts.

Hope school is kind to me tomorrow, don't wanna have too straining activities, I'm dead tired.

CNY!

Ok, CNY eve was special, I taught the longest foundations lesson that the sec 1's have ever attended.
Didn't know I took so long because I couldn't see the clock.
And very special things are gonna happen soon.
Spent the whole day sleeping, woke up for reunion dinner, steamboat! Yum!
After that played bowling till now, and came home.
Super tired!
Happy Chinese New Year everyone!

Saturday!

James the RockStar!

Today started off really badly.
Was woken up to my mum's insane nagging capabilities.
Ate my breakfast and left the house at 11.30 to go to CP to meet James and Gab Ho.
Both of them came late, close to 1pm, when I said to meet at 12pm, but I'm okay with it.
Had lunch at macs, figured out how to get to David's house by LRT, went there and taught James and Gabriel guitar.
Both of them picked up pretty fast, I'm impressed.
I still remember when I first learnt guitar, I hated it and detested the pain in the fingers, and sucked at the first song I ever learnt.
Hope they continue to have the interest.
Went to edge.
Vinny came along, and I prayed a prayer for him. =)
After that I went to Hougang for dinner with the youth, and things just got worse from then.
Won't elaborate on the details, but I'm friggin pissed right now, my parents never bother to listen to my explanations, they just accuse and judge without getting the facts straight.
I'm through trying to explain things to them.
Anyway, I'm gonna dread tomorrow, and I haven't printed the Foundations notes and prepared the lesson yet =P
No sleep tonight I guess...
Already had 4 cups of coffee just now so I guess I'll be fine...

Dear net,

TGIF!
Can't believe its the end if the week and I can look forward to the extended holiday!
Recap - Woke up late today, dad rushed me to school, got there on time and ended at 11am, wanted to go to seoul garden but no one was free to accompany me, so sad ='(
Slept the whole day from 1+ till 6.30pm, rushed dinner and went to net to practice for praise and worship.
Worship wasn't bad luh, wanna hear horrid stuff you should have seen when I first started out playing guitar for net.
And net was great, as expected, as always.
Prayer was good.
And the other net came over to surprise JJ and Esther and to celebrate their birthdays!
Gotta say a BIG thank you to all who helped, especially Johnathon Gnin who conformed to my plans (haha) so last minute.

Tomorrow promises to be a great day, gonna teach Gab Ho and James guitar, bringing Vinny for edge, so excited.
And cousins are coming down from KL!
Wanna see my youngest cousin, so cute hahaha.

And of course to see how my other cousins are doing.This is my cousin Joel Phua!
Cute right?

The week so far.

This week started off pretty crappy, screwed up my CARC presentation on monday.
FNDB was ok, OOPG lecture was hilarious, can't elaborate due to certain 'themes' only Lohes and Baini know the full thing =P

Tuesday got better, although i was extremely tired, and my phone just died; It stopped receiving calls and messages and I didn't realise until I saw that a message that I sent hours ago was still in my outbox. Restarted my phone and received 7 messages saying that they were sharing something.
Was pretty dumbfounded till I read Evie's message saying that I was buying the cake for Esther's birthday celebration.
Plus I read that message while on the bus reaching home, so had to detour to CompassPoint, asked David to meet me to give a second opinion, bought the cake and decided to just go straight to caregroup earlier to 'hide' the cake.
Ate burger king, savoured the burger like it was the last burger that I was ever gonna see.
Everyone arrived late!
Only Jeremy Seaward, Johnathon and the 2 hosts were on time! >=O
But it was a good time of sharing, but my mind wandered off very often, due to my tiredness, but I requested a prayer there and now I'm believing God for a breakthrough, have been praying for this for more than a year already.

Wednesday, full day, had C-maths test, screwed up one question, hope that I'll pass.
Rushed CMSK 3 report, although now I feel that I might fail it, after seeing someone else's work which was like 21899876278x better than mine.
Rushed for prayer cos I tot it starts at 6.45pm, reached at 7pm, thought I was late but didn't see any car inside =O
So i booked myself a seat and slacked outside and had a chat with Paul Yong's father.
After that went to eat dinner with David, Marcia, Marcus and Sheryl.
The fried rice was cold?!
Marcus knows how to fold Singaporean money into something mega retarded/hilarious!
Kept laughing at that.

Overslept today, woke up at 11pm, rushed off to school for OOPG lab test, 1 hour to school, spent 2 hours in school -.-
The test was okay, out of 7 java codes i managed to get 5 of them working, still gotta work hard to understand the full concept of everything.
Was mega blur today, made so many blunders and was complaining loudly about my codes not being able to be compiled, and Lohes just took one look and spotted the mistake, which was a very obvious and stupid mistake.
After that I even forgot to hand in the question paper which was needed for attendance today.
Blur me.
Hung out at Century Square after that, didn't do much.

Oh and I swam today!
For the 1st time in at least 10 months!
I know la, I paiseh to swim because of my super visible ribcage.
So I swam at night, and my body wasn't used to the change in pressure, so my head hurt like crazy after I came out.
Net promises to be great tomorrow, don't know why though, just have that feeling again, everytime the feeling comes, net always turns out great!

Random survey I did on soundtracks that represent different scenes of life (personal comments in bracket)

Soundtrack to your life - Put Ipod/mp3 player on shuffle and see what you come out with

Opening Credits: When I'm gone
Waking Up: (515) (Hate to have to wake up at 5.15am)
First day at school: Reflections (whats there to reflect?)
Falling in Love: This week the trend (ooh)
Getting it on: Hiding place (better hide before the scandals start)
Fight Song: Heartbreaker
Breaking Up: Till the end of time (yeah)
Prom: True
Life: Crawling (Spent only 8 months crawling when i was a child)
Mental Breakdown: Jesus oh what a wonderful child
Driving: Storm (hate to have to drive in insane conditions)
Flashback: The blister exists (don't you mean the scar exists?)
Wedding: Someday (hope to find my special one someday)
Birth of a child: My future decided (become a househusband??)
Final Battle: You are my world (you are IN my world)
Death Scene: Anything but ordinary (Hope they give me a normal burial)
Funeral Song: Without you (nothings the same without me =X)
Closing Credits: Lost souls in endless time

What I go to school for

You know, without this group of friends, I guess I'll never find reason to come to school.
Today could've been the worse day of 2009 so far, cos I only had 3 hours of sleep the night before, screwed up my CARC presentation and report, forgot about DCNK and C-maths test thats coming up and not being able to finish my CMSK report as well.
I would've been down in the dumps if not for their encouragements and the constant laughs we get from trying to mimick the china accent in OOPG.
I guess I have God to thank for sucha fun and caring clique, I would've changed course long ago if you guys didn't help me revive my fighting spirit.

Two different worlds collide

You know the saying that you always end up like the person you'd never dreamt of becoming?
Its due to the fact that you watch that person's actions too much and start getting influenced by it subconsciously.
Well, for one I always told myself that I'd never become like my father.
Truth is, I've become more like him than I ever have before.
I started noticing my actions recently, and I felt that I've started to talk like him, act like him and just becoming like him.
That's why I changed the way I dressed, made my hair up, all to avoid becoming him.

Well lets change the subject shall we?
I've been sick the past few days, and thanks to that I lost 10% for my OOPG assignment.
Took MC on thursday, and realised that MC wasn't valid for late submission of the assignment.
Went back to school on Friday to submit it.
Prepared net lesson and worship super last minute.
However, I felt that net was really good, cos everyone is starting to open up more and starting to share alot.
Thats the thing about net group that I enjoy, we all learn from one another, instead of just having to see one person talking the whole time.

Today was great!
Tennis was fun!
Bowling was frustrating.
Edge was awesome.
I was a little unattached during dinner time.
Felt abit lost and confused.
And AMK/SK club has a new name!
S.I.A.N (Stanley, Ivan, Arthur, Nicholas).
LOL ok no link...
Random thoughts in this post.

Hope my parents understand what I'm going through.
Hope that I'll buck up and start getting focused.
Hope that my calling and vision won't die.
Hope that I myself won't die.

Ahh ok whatever I'll end here.

Procrastination killed the poly student.

So yeah, I fell sick.
Must've been passed from my brother, cos he was having about the same ailments as me.
And thanks to all the sleeping and resting, I didn't have time to do my assignments.
Took MC from school today, slept the whole afternoon, only to find out that I've lost 10% in my programming assignment.
Screw it. Screw it all.
Now I've gotta write my report for OOPG, as well as CMSK.
Gotta prepare net lesson, as well as practice for net worship.
Gotta touch up my CARC, do the reflection for SIWM and discuss with Andrew about DCNK.
And after all of that nonsense I gotta get down to study for final year exams.
School life sucks.
And its much worse when you're sick and have so many duties, having no appetite and eating nothing but plain bread for the past 2 days, no energy and brain juice to think of what to write in my reports.
This is the feeling everyone hates.
How I yearn for the holidays, where I'm so carefree and where I smile more.
Whatever they tell you, school life after secondary is the worse, brace yourself or fall harder than everyone else.

C5

Ok, so I got a C5 for science, not exactly what I wanted, but hey, God's in control.
And thanks for the encouragement from my friends.

At least from a d7 to a c5 then you have 20 points now ok wat
- Gabriel Gnin

Ah... Hey! I expected higher. Well! At least you passed.
-Eugenia

Hey its okay buddy. It's all right. God is still sovereign.
- David

Thats very good. Hopefully your parents don't demand you to retake. Hee
- Penny.

Hey bro. If you're feeling down over your results, don't be, okay? You tried your best.
- Nicholas

And thanks for the encouragement from everyone else saying that a pass is better than a fail.
Parents aren't that disappointed, but aren't too happy as well.
Hope all goes well from here on, and to the others who got their results today, hope you get into a school and course that you like, especially Rocco, with your imba score of 6 for L1R5.

Stress?!

So recently I attended a stress management talk, and realized that I have 90% of the symptoms of stress.
So most of you might have realized by now, my recent change in appearance has guaranteed that.
But I was thinking, what could I possibly be stressed with?
I mean, I take it easy, I'm pretty laid back but at the same time I'm insanely stressed.
Maybe not stressed with the huge workload that just hit me.
Maybe I'm stressed by the fact that my parents have a rather high expectation on my academics. And if I don't meet that expectation, I'm in for hell.
For my brother, on the other hand, they hold much lower expectations for him, and when he doesn't meet those expectations, nothing happens.
Favourtism....
Well, whats done is done and I guess I'll have to try my best.
Many things going on in the church for me as well.
I just hope that God gives me the strength to cope with my studies and church duties.
And willing offering is tomorrow, don't forget!
Leading worship for afternoon outreach, stress.
Gonna teach net lesson next week, stress.
Gonna start something big, stress.
Its a secret, only my net members know.
Many things are gonna come through this year.
I will not lose the vision of getting a scholarship.
Will work doubly-hard now.
And the edge finally reached our 300 mark!
We had 321 people attending the edge today!
So any of you reading this, if you're interested in being in the best place to spend your Saturday nights, message me for details!
Can't wait for the holidays, the China trip.
And I got 22.5/30 for my SIWM blogging assignment!
Yeah I know luh, blogging, but it was my highest score among all the other subjects.
New media rocks!
Ok, gotta sleep early for church tomorrow, nights all (=

Amazing

I know its kinda funny,
but every time I see her face,
everything falls into place.
Worries, doubts and fear just cease,
I feel at rest, at ease.
This fantasy,
was it ever meant to be?

No mood.

I don't have mood to study.
I don't have mood to go to school.
I failed 3 subjects.
A big improvement from last semester.
At least I passed 2 subjects.
I'm blogging in class.
I'm fearing 12th January.
They tell me to do what I like, so why am I not doing that?
In fact I'm doing what I dislike.
Dad tells me to pursue my interests, but this isn't one of them.
And yet he still tries to manipulate me to think that my course gives me a good future.
What good is it if my results continue to stay like that?
There's an improvement, no doubt.
But for the next 2 years I'll really have to sweat it out.
If I want to do well, I'll have no life.
If I want a life, I won't do well.
Confusion and doubt.
Dilemma and fear.
Please don't forget my existence if I do choose to do well in studies.

Eh??!!!

Nobody told me that I'd fail APEL if I didn't submit the reflection??!!!

School starts

Ok, so technically yesterday, we had our first ever combined corporate sunday service at Singapore Expo!
I was singing in the choir, and it felt weird, cos I've never done something like that before, and I knew nuts about bass, tenor, alto and soprano so I just sang normally.
If I didn't meet Cecilina I don't think I would have been on stage, cos I was super late, but lucky for us the choir leader allowed us to join in.
No photos, cos we rushed home after service, slept the whole day, overslept and missed evening service, and gonna find some mood to go sleep to wake up for school tomorrow.

School sounds like a swear word

Person A : I have school tomorrow.
Person B : I rebuke that foul attitude of yours!

Happy new year!

Ok so the last 2 weeks of 2008 were the best ever!
I can't remember what happened exactly, but I do know that region 3/4 peeps rescued my Christmas by asking me to accompany them to ice3 to join them for games, I remember first day of school was a bore, but my classmates rescued it by going to Bedok Reservoir to have fun and take photos!
And then there was Vivocity outing, we also did nothing much but eat and play games and had fun, and finally goodbye 2008 and hello 2009 in Church for watchnight service and all night movie mania!