Mis-Matched!

Ok, recap of the week, had very few hours of sleep this week, as was studying for exams.
I think the most would be about 12-14 hours of sleep the past 5 days.
Yesterday, went to school to study, managed to cover abit.
After school went to CP to meet Lavette, Esther and Marcia to discuss about the games for the mis-match party.
Went to Marcia's house to slack after that, watched funny vids on youtube and stuff, and went back to CP to meet Andrei, Johnathon, Alan and Pamela to discuss about the youth activity this March.
The youth activity is gonna be great!
Everyone should be there! =D

Today, had my CARC paper, was quite ok, I guess.
Some questions I left blank cos I forgot the answers. (This is the effects of having too little sleep)
Went home to pack my 'costume' for the mis-match party.
Ivan came over for awhile, played guitar hero on wii before leaving for suntec.
Went to suntec and found out that Kuishin-Bo was closed?!
So we wandered about and finally decided on Sakae Sushi buffet.
Ordered so many dishes and took so much food.
If they didn't clear the plates for us I think we could have stacked mountains XD
After the buffet, went to CP to meet Boris, and went to the condo.
Had lotsa fun, playing the 'water game', 'Who, what huh?' and Hide'n seek.
Dinner was awesome!
Teriyaki chicken rice, coleslaw, and for dessert we had peanut butter brownies with ice cream!
And the sharing was kinda dry, I think.
I cracked and choked on my words alot cos I think I was about to cry while sharing my testimony.
Thank God for everyone who came, and those who brought friends!
Praying that every other outreach will be as successful as this!
Wooooooooooooooooooo!

Beyond

Open my eyes to see Your plan
Place within me this dream where the lost return to You
I want to see beyond all I ever knew
To see the lost come back to You

Dear Lord,
I'm sorry for going so astray. I was lost but now I'm found. Please give me courage, strength and patience to see what you have in store for me in the future. Please grant me wisdom in handling delicate situations. I want to depend on you, and not myself anymore. I give my whole life to you. Take me as I am.

When I am weak, you make me strong.
When I am lost, you rescue me.
In times of trials, you comfort me.
Jesus Your love, is all I need.

Outcast =(

Thanks H.A.N.A.A.L for keeping me from insanity.
Thanks region 3/4 for all the good counsel and well wishes.

After reading some people's blogs and viewing photos on Facebook, I realise I've been missing out on alot of activities.
Mainly because of parents.
Whenever there is something on, my parents always don't allow, and last time I used to lie to them to get out of the house, now I just ignore what they say and leave anyway.
I'm 18 years old, by year, but my parents still think I'm a kid who can't handle himself properly.
I don't wanna be an outcast, and I think people got so used to me letting them down that they've just stopped asking me out, cos I always give the same answer, "Parents dun allow".
I guess that's the problem with rich parents.
They think they're the best at everything cos they can make so much money, they think they know everything, and therefore they look down on everyone else and tend to underestimate them.
Take my mum for instance.
My mum is a good driver.
But my dad always puts down her driving, and says that she's not allowed to drive when he's not around, and she's not allowed to listen to music while driving, and we're not allowed to talk to her while she's driving.
Everyone who has gotten a lift from my mum all said that my mum can drive well.
But not my dad.
See what I mean?
He thinks he's the best and no one can do as good a job as he does.
So he doesn't think I can handle my life, and he makes all my decisions for me.
Yes, go ahead and laugh.
I hate this life.

OOPG = FAIL

Ok, so the day didn't go very well today.
OOPG exam, confirm must go supp paper =(
99.99% la, according to Lohes, no such thing as 100% fail.
Wanted to wake up early today to do some last minute revision, but in the end I overslept and woke up just in time to leave for school.
Went in, mind was still warming up, and was super blur and my mind was totally blank.
Was super EMO, but den my friends cheered me up alot!
We were making funny faces at pedestrians from inside the bus, waving and motorcycles and cars that were going by, acting like super retards.
Den went over to Tampines building, cos mum was fetching bro Hock Chee from there to Missions rally.
Took a bus down there with Ain, and pointed to her our VFC Tampines building.
Pity she thought that it was multi storey carpark all this time.
And went to collect dinner for the missions rally.
Nasi Lemak!
Reached Val's condo early, and helped set up, as well as rushed to learn the songs that Esther was doing.
Tried to discuss about net outreach but failed....
And did some fun stuff there, thank God.
And when it ended, a total of 9 people squeezed into our car!
Amazing!
It was mum and bro Hock Chee in front.
2nd row was David, Esther, Lavette and me!
3rd row was Stanley, Sheryl and Felisha.
Simply amazing.

Honda Odyssey. Get one now!

Be my escape

Isn't this the most darling thing you've seen in your life?

Ok, so I'm feeling better now.
Managed to talk so someone about how I felt and it feels much better to not keep it inside.
So I guess thats how I can control my anger, tell someone about it, pray about it and look at cute seals like the one here.
My first paper starts tomorrow. (Why am I blogging?)
Programming.
Java.
Language of the computer.
I've studied, no doubt.
But my mind always gets blank when I sit in front of the paper.
BBQ on saturday!
Can't wait for that, its gonna be my escape from the current stress.
Well, I guess thats all I have today.
All the best for everyone taking exams.
God Bless =)

This week couldn't get any draggier

I'm feeling super bored now, thanks to the screwed up plans today, no mood to study anymore.
Somehow I always feel that my parents were placed in my life to test my patience, and now as my patience is wearing thin, I feel like Bruce Banner A.K.A The Incredible Hulk.
I'm at the tipping point and just about to turn into an unstoppable monster.
Part of the caregroup last night was about dealing with anger.
I know anger is a poison.
I know anger kills.
But everyone gets angry.
And I have been harbouring 16 years of anger inside.
And now the jar's been filled up.
It's overflowing, and if I cap it and continue to fill it its gonna explode.

Hi, my name is Arthur, I'm 18 this year but my parents treat me as if I'm 10 years old.

Monday blues no more =)

Ok, OOPG remedial today, birds birds birds.
Time flew by really quickly, went for lunch at the coffee shop near my school, followed by Hainan trip briefing.
After that went to 'mug' for my OOPG retest.
During the 'mugging', was chatting on MSN and was indirectly invited to join Lavette, Gabriel Gnin/Ho, James and Joyna for dinner.
Met up with them after school at Hougang and saw Marcia, Marcus and their dad as well.
Well at least that beat staying at home, and it cured my Monday blues.

I realise that I've been cabbing around alot lately, and I've been getting lazier, as well as more forgetful.
I don't know, but sometimes I get the feeling that I'm actually wasting my life away....
Just an emo moment, or really something I should take note of?
Hmm...
Oh well, after exams I'm gonna cut my hair and declare myself not emo!
Woohoo!

2 songs to represent my thoughts

Valentine's day is drawing near.
I can't get you out of my head.
I can't release this fear.
All I ask is that,
"Will you be my valentine?"

Moday blues =(

So, Sunday was a great day!
Morning service was good, foundations was good, lunch with church mates was real good, fellowship at the back of the sanctuary at Tampines building was fun!
Evening service was reeeeaaalllllyyyy looooooooonnggggggg!
But many good testimonies were shared.
I was half asleep during the service.
But all in all I love the weekends!

Today, monday blues....
Woke up with aching shoulders, headache, runny nose and a slight fever.
Took a bus to school, got caught in the jam and was almost late.
School was fine.
Watched Russell Peters with friends and got a real good laugh.
On the way home, the bus broke down!
Rawr, so had to take the next bus, which apparently was empty, dunno why.
Thank God I found a seat.
Reached home at 8pm.
Hope tomorrow will be better.
My sickness is just weird, it always acts up at the wrong time and subsides when just before I'm going to sleep.

Arthur loves Saturday

Ok, today rocked!
Slept till 11pm, had lunch, went off to James's house to teach James and Gabriel Ho guitar.
Was quite a good session, just that they have to practice more.
Taught them a new song and a strumming pattern, hope they have more fun practicing XD.
Edge service!
Was really good!
JL preached today, was on the topic of focus.
Look at this!
http://whitesheepjames.blogspot.com/2009/02/i-realize-time-and-time-again-that-god.html
It was dated February 5th but the message on focus was on the 7th of February!
How prophetic!
Awesome.
And my newest net member Jeremy was once again yelling 'AMEN!' at every opportunity available.
All because Esther psycho-ed him to do so at net yesterday.
And he's continuing to do so today.
Couldn't stop laughing and trying to cover my face.
Dinner-ed at LJS, came home and slacked, should get some sleep soon, no duty whatsoever tomorrow, but wanna get up fresh and ready to step into God's house again in the morning!
=)

Thank God I'm alive =)

So I managed to survive this week.
Fell awfully sick on Wednesday, had to leave school halfway cos I couldn't stay awake.
Slept the whole Thursday away, but forgot about my SIWM assignment so spent the whole night doing it.
Slept at 5am+ last night, so was dreadfully tired today.
SIWM presentation + net worship + net lesson = dead Arthur.
I was supposed to teach net, and I still did, although I was half dead.
My fever didn't act up till I reached net group.
But after net I feel slightly better.
But had to cancel tennis lesson tomorrow, I'm afraid I'll collapse if I exercise.
Cracked our brains for what to do for our net outreach, something great is going to happen.
And now I'm cracking my brains on what to teach James and Gabriel on guitar tomorrow.
Our net grew!
From 10 people to 12 people!
Yay!
Hurray for Jeremy and Cheryl who made it tonight!
The vision is going to come true sooner than expected!
And Jeremy is soooo enthu!
Amen the loudest!
wooohoooo!
Net was super noisy tonight, kinda reminded me of the old crazy net days when we had 20+ people meeting up.
I really do hope God does something miraculous.
We are gonna see great things happen this year!
Yeeeeeeeeeeehaaaaaaaaaaawwwwwww!!
(Ok, I'm super high on panadol now, like awesome, yeah)

When I'm gone

I realise that nowadays I'm having too much 'me' time.
I spend so much time alone that I don't know how to react when I'm in a large group of people.
And the screwed up thing is that I get pissed off when people tell me what they did with this group of friends, blablabla, makes me feel so left out and unwanted. -.-
Anyway, I gotta shake this emo auro about me, cos I've been told many many times that I have a rather emo look for my default face.
I hope that my friends will ask me out when the holidays start.
I don't wanna be rotting at home.
The feeling of being at home when your friends are having fun sucks.
And especially when they tell you all about it, and they didn't invite you to join them from the start, even if its your clique or something.
It hurts.
Well that feeling comes and goes, just gotta hope for a better social life, since mine has been rather shaky from the start.
Everyone needs friends, some need a few, others need many.
I don't know where to classify myself, so I'll be in the middle.
And many of my friends say that I need girls in my life :O.
Girls??!!
Yeah, they tell me girls can help me to be more joyful, especially if its a girlfriend and all that nonsense.
I'm like, whatever man.
Friends are friends, girls and guys alike.
I just don't want to be left out, thats all I ask.
And I realised that the China trip is gonna clash with the Reinhard Bonkke outreach.
Dilemma dilemma.
Oh well, I guess God decides all.
Leave it to Him to decide what happens next, does something good happen or will things get way screwed up from here?
We'll see.

200th Post!

Ok! I shall start off my 200th post with a quiz...
I LOL-ed when I typed in number 13.
Check it out!
Haha

1.Put your iTunes/Napster/Zune Player/WinAmp/etc on shuffle.
2. For each question, press the next button to get your answer.
3. YOU MUST WRITE THAT SONG NAME DOWN NO MATTER HOW SILLY IT SOUNDS!

1. IF SOMEONE SAYS "IS THIS OKAY" YOU SAY?
   When I'm gone - 3 Doors Down


2. WHAT DO YOU LIKE IN A GUY/GIRL?
   Heartbreak Armageddon - DragonForce


3. HOW DO YOU FEEL TODAY?
   Uncreated One - Chris Tomlin


4. WHAT IS YOUR LIFE'S PURPOSE?
   All I Need Is You - Hillsong United


5. WHAT IS YOUR MOTTO?
   Overcome - Desperation Band


6. WHAT DO YOUR FRIENDS THINK OF YOU?
   Plead the fifth - Relient K


7. WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR PARENTS?
   Chop Me Up - Justin Timberlake, Three 6 Mafia, Timbaland


8. WHAT DO YOU THINK ABOUT VERY OFTEN?
   All Again for you - We The Kings


9. WHAT IS 2+2?
   The Last Song Ever - SecondHand Serenade


10. WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR BEST FRIEND?
    Life Of My Own - 3 Doors Down


11. WHAT DO YOU THINK OF THE PERSON YOU LIKE?
    Betrayed - Avenged Sevenfold


12. WHAT IS YOUR LIFE STORY?
    Sexyback - Justin Timberlake


13. WHAT DO YOU WANT TO BE WHEN YOU GROW UP?
    High And Lifted Up - Hillsong


14. WHAT DO YOU THINK WHEN YOU SEE THE PERSON YOU LIKE?
    There is Nothing Like - Hillsong


15. WHAT DO YOUR PARENTS THINK OF YOU?
    Vermillion Pt 2 - SlipKnot


16. WHAT WILL YOU DANCE TO AT YOUR WEDDING?
    When I'm Gone - Simple Plan


17. WHAT WILL THEY PLAY AT YOUR FUNERAL?
    Someday - Mariah Carey


18. WHAT IS YOUR HOBBY/INTEREST?
    In The Mystery - Hillsong


19. WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR FRIENDS?
    Nobody's Listening - Linkin Park


20. WHAT'S THE WORST THING THAT COULD HAPPEN?
    Fury Of The Storm - DragonForce


21. HOW WILL YOU DIE?
    Amazing Grace (My Chains Are Gone) - Chris Tomlin


22. WHAT IS THE ONE THING YOU REGRET?
    Trail Of Broken Hearts - DragonForce


23. WHAT MAKES YOU LAUGH?
    Points Of Authority - Linkin Park


24. WHAT MAKES YOU CRY?
    Save You - Simple Plan


25. WILL YOU EVER GET MARRIED?
    Honey, This Mirror isn't big enough for the two of us - My Chemical Romance


26. WHAT SCARES YOU THE MOST?
    Run - Disturbed


27. DOES ANYONE LIKE YOU?
    Thank You For The Venom - My Chemical Romance


28. IF YOU COULD GO BACK IN TIME, WHAT WOULD YOU CHANGE?
    My Plague - Slipknot


29. WHAT HURTS RIGHT NOW?
    Came to the rescue - Hillsong United


30. WHAT WILL YOU POST THIS AS?
    Tonight - FM Static