I realise that nowadays I'm having too much 'me' time.
I spend so much time alone that I don't know how to react when I'm in a large group of people.
And the screwed up thing is that I get pissed off when people tell me what they did with this group of friends, blablabla, makes me feel so left out and unwanted. -.-
Anyway, I gotta shake this emo auro about me, cos I've been told many many times that I have a rather emo look for my default face.
I hope that my friends will ask me out when the holidays start.
I don't wanna be rotting at home.
The feeling of being at home when your friends are having fun sucks.
And especially when they tell you all about it, and they didn't invite you to join them from the start, even if its your clique or something.
It hurts.
Well that feeling comes and goes, just gotta hope for a better social life, since mine has been rather shaky from the start.
Everyone needs friends, some need a few, others need many.
I don't know where to classify myself, so I'll be in the middle.
And many of my friends say that I need girls in my life :O.
Girls??!!
Yeah, they tell me girls can help me to be more joyful, especially if its a girlfriend and all that nonsense.
I'm like, whatever man.
Friends are friends, girls and guys alike.
I just don't want to be left out, thats all I ask.
And I realised that the China trip is gonna clash with the Reinhard Bonkke outreach.
Dilemma dilemma.
Oh well, I guess God decides all.
Leave it to Him to decide what happens next, does something good happen or will things get way screwed up from here?
We'll see.
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