I just don't know

I don't know what to feel.
I don't know what to say.
I just don't know where I'm headed.
The path of destruction?
Or the path of life?
Why do thoughts of pain always come?
The thief comes to steal, kill and destroy.
Isn't he done with me already?
Hasn't he crushed me to bits already?
Why isn't he stopping yet?
Why doesn't my torment end?
God, I really need you to come to my rescue.

I woke up in tears one of the nights this week.

All because I dreamt of you.
I dreamt that you were in immense pain.
Like you were suffering hell's torment.
I couldn't bear it.
I hope it doesn't come to past.
I hope I don't have another deja vu moment where I see these scenes.
Its gonna be too painful to bear.
And I'd just be helpless as well.
So I'll be praying hard.
And hope the hero comes to save the day.