If you ever loved somebody put your hands up.
Now they’re gone and you wish you could give them everything.

A new phase

Okay, so it's been about 3 months since I've been here.
It's been a roller coaster ride of emotions.
Having to choose between so many things.
Having to make decisions that will affect relationships positively.
It's been trying, it's been tough.
However, thank God for the patience he's given me.
Always, I've been asked, "so who's better? Them or us?".
And I always have to avoid it.
Oh well.
Just when I was starting to get accepted in the 3/4 cliques, this had to happen.
God sees the bigger picture, of course.
I've learned to accept that I'm a part of 7/8 now, but being part of a new region doesn't necessarily mean that I have to throw away old relationships.
I'm still trying to learn to find the balance.
Hope God continues to grant me strength in this.
All seems to be going good at the moment.
7/8 is great, but it's definitely not home.
I'm still waiting for the day that I can finally go home (:

Officially Missing You

Going through all photos of 2009-2010,

it suddenly dawned on me.

I won't be spending time with the people who mean the world to me on days like Christmas, regional youth activities, dinners, lunches, suppers, hangouts.

It's all changed.

Haven't felt the full force of it till now.

Sighhh, I really miss all the times we had.

Now it's all far gone.

Confused

That's what this generation is.

Voices

So many voices in this world.
Some tell you where to go.
Some tell you who you should be.
Some tell you what they want you to be.
Confusion sets in.
Doubt creeps in.
Amidst all these voices, who should we all listen to?
The voice of truth, of course.
Just because someone tells you to be something you're not, and though it may feel like that person's right, though it may seem like the right thing to do, just ask yourself, "Is that what God wants me to do?"
Yes, friends, we shouldn't always trust the voices we hear everyday.
Instead we should be still, wait upon the Lord, to hear His voice, through the Word, by worshipping Him, and of course in prayer.

A simple man believes anything, but a prudent man gives thought to his steps. (Proverbs 14:15)

And of course, the devil has a voice too.
And trust me, his words are always so luring, so tempting.
We gotta be wise to be able to detect that it's the devil's voice speaking.
Of course, when a temptation to do something bad comes, even if it may seem small, stuff like disobeying parents, etc, we gotta stop and question ourselves, and if your conscience starts to stir up in you, you KNOW that you're not doing the right thing.

But I am afraid that just as Eve was deceived by the serpent's cunning, your minds may somehow be led astray from your sincere and pure devotion to Christ. (2 Corinthians 11:3)

1 Corinthians 13 : 4-7

Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. It is not rude, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres.

I am gonna

DISAPPEAR

We are the world

We all need somebody that we can lean on

when you wake up look around and see that your dreams gone

when the earth quakes we’ll help you make it through the storm

when the floor breaks a magic carpet to stand on

we are the World united by love so strong

when the radio isn’t on you can hear the songs

a guided light on the dark road your walking on

a sign post to find the dreams you thought was gone

someone to help you move the obstacles you stumbled on

someone to help you rebuild after the rubble’s gone

we are the World connected by a common bond

Love the whole planet sing it along

Make my day.

I'm Still Yours

If You washed away my vanity
If You took away my words
If all my world was swept away
Would You be enough for me?
Would my beating heart still sing?

If I lost it all
Would my hands stay lifted
To the God who gives and takes away
If You take it all
This life You've given
Still my heart will sing to You

When my life is not what I expected
The plans I made have failed
When there's nothing left to steal me away
Will You be enough for me?
Will my broken heart still sing?

Even if You take it all away
You'll never let me go
Take it all away
But I still know
That I'm Yours
I'm still Yours

♥

It's amazing how life has brought us together as friends.

It's been an awesome journey.

Though the future's uncertain, I do pray that we remain as friends.

That we'll be there to pick each other up, to encourage each other, and to trust each other with secrets, to pray for one another.

Cheers to another awesome year of friendship!

-Friendship isn't bout who you've known the longest, it's about who came & never left.

We'll be a dream

Do you remember the nights
We'd stay up just laughing
Smiling for hours
At anything
Remember the nights
We drove around crazy in love

Do you remember the nights
We made our way dreaming
Hoping of being
Someone big
We were so young then
We were too crazy
In love

When the lights go out
We'll be safe and sound
We'll take control of the world
Like it's all we have to hold on to
And we'll be a dream

How do I,

Restore this bridge that was destroyed?

This bridge that linked me to you.

=)

The End

When this is over,

We'll be so much older.

Cause everything you do and words you say
You know that it all takes my breath away

Just when I thought

Just when I thought that everyone would've given up on me,
Just when I thought that I've run out of tears to cry,
Just when I thought that I didn't have a friend who'd pray for me,
You just had to come and prove me wrong.
I love you.

If

If only you knew, if only...

What kept me alive all this while.

1 Peter 5:17

17 Cast all your anxiety on him because he cares for you.

2 Corinthians 12:9

9 But he said to me, "My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness." Therefore I will boast all the more gladly about my weaknesses, so that Christ's power may rest on me.

Matthew 5:13-16

13 "You are the salt of the earth, but if salt has lost its taste, how shall its saltiness be restored? It is no longer good for anything except to be thrown out and trampled under people’s feet.

14 "You are the light of the world. A city set on a hill cannot be hidden. 15 Nor do people light a lamp and put it under a basket, but on a stand, and it gives light to all in the house. 16In the same way, let your light shine before others, so that they may see your good works and give glory to your Father who is in heaven.

Matthew 28:16-20

16 Then the eleven disciples went to Galilee, to the mountain where Jesus had told them to go.17 When they saw him, they worshiped him; but some doubted. 18 Then Jesus came to them and said, "All authority in heaven and on earth has been given to me. 19 Therefore go and make disciples of all nations, baptizing them in the name of the Father and of the Son and of the Holy Spirit, 20 and teaching them to obey everything I have commanded you. And surely I am with you always, to the very end of the age."

Jeremiah 29:11

11 For I know the plans I have for you," declares the LORD, "plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.

I heard in a sermon before, that if you are always one to complain, it probably means that you've been thinking too much about yourself. And once you start putting others first, you find that you complain less, because you'd see how fortunate you are compared to others. How true is that? I see the joyful people, they're joyful because they spend so much time helping others that they don't really care about their problems all that much, because they know that they can count on God in times of crisis. Well, I guess I still have a lot to learn. Gotta learn to put others before myself, and try to shake off the devil and his book of lies. Loneliness is just gonna be another phase that and I know I'll make it through with God by my side.

What hurts the most

I can take the rain on the roof of this empty house
That don’t bother me
I can take a few tears now and then and just let them out
I’m not afraid to cry every once in a while
Even though going on with you gone still upsets me
There are days every now and again I pretend I’m ok
But that’s not what gets me

What hurts the most
Was being so close
And having so much to say
And watching you walk away
And never knowing
What could have been
And not seeing that loving you
Is what I was tryin’ to do

It’s hard to deal with the pain of losing you everywhere I go
But I’m doin’ It
It’s hard to force that smile when I see our old friends and I’m alone
Still Harder
Getting up, getting dressed, livin’ with this regret
But I know if I could do it over
I would trade give away all the words that I saved in my heart
That I left unspoken

Not seeing that loving you
That’s what I was trying to do

:)

This was probably taken months ago. But I still love this memory :D

More memories...

You guys make me smile.

How I wish we could turn back time to back then

And I'll be here by the ocean
Just waiting for proof that there's
Sunsets and silhouette dreams
All my sand castles fall
Like the ashes of cigarettes
And every wave drags me to sea
I could stand here for hours
Just to ask God the question
"Is everyone here make-believe?"
With a tear in His voice
He said, "Son, that's the question."
Does this deafening silence mean nothing
To no one but me?

God sees.

People are often unreasonable, illogical,
and self-centered;
Forgive them anyway.

If you are kind, People may accuse you
of selfish, ulterior motives;
Be kind anyway.

If you are successful, you will win some
false friends and some true enemies;
Succeed anyway.

If you are honest and frank,
people may cheat you;
Be honest and frank anyway.

What you spend years building, someone
could destroy overnight;
Build anyway.

If you find serenity and happiness,
they may be jealous;
Be happy anyway.

The good you do today,
people will often forget tomorrow;
Do good anyway.

Give the world the best you have,
and it may never be enough;
Give the world the best you've got anyway.

You see, in the FINAL analysis,
it is between you and God;
It was never between you and them anyway

What's wrong with,

What's wrong with just getting by?

What's wrong with having just enough.

You always say, we must save up save up save up.

But when we die, doesn't it all return void?

Whatever we have saved up here on earth, we wouldn't be able to bring it to eternity.

Why do we need so much?

Why do we desire so much?

Money, a good career, money, more money, money money money.

Why does the world revolve around money?

Why?

Why can't we don't have the kind of job that requires us to be at work all the time, so we can spend more time with our family?

Though we might earn less, and though maybe sometimes we might encounter a crisis, shouldn't it be the time where we become more dependent on God?

If we're so rich, it gets to our head that we did it on our own, that we don't need God to provide.

Because we have it all planned out, "Wow, you see, because I saved so much, I managed to avoid this crisis here, blah blah blah"

But if we just have enough to get by, we would say something like, "I know I can trust God to provide me in this time, so that at the end of this trial we can stand and glorify God with an awesome testimony."

Shouldn't that be the way?

Rather than trying so hard to earn more money, that you forsake time spent with your family, that you skip church meetings and services because you have to be overseas working.

Why do people even do that?

Especially as Christians.

What makes us different from the rest of the world if we follow the standards of the world by trying to gain wordly possessions?

It's just so, disappointing, when I think about it.

It makes me sick to think what Christian parents are drilling into the minds of their children.

Nuff said, I'm just feeling so, so disappointed...

A few Thank Yous I have to say.

I know I've done this before.

But there are a few more people whom I wanna appreciate (I wanted to do this before the end of 2009 but I procrasinated) :

Evie, Esther, Johnathan, Joshua and Gabriel Gnin,

who have sacrificed so much to take care of this region.

Really awesome to have you guys as leaders over me and just know that you guys are doing an awesome job!

The edge worship team, who took me into the ministry.

You guys are amazing and really anointed worshippers of God and it's been an honour playing my guitar with you all on stage.

Keep rocking out for Jesus!

My net (JJ, PinXuan, Marcia & Weeling)

Just wanna thank you all for being such good friends to me, for coming to net so faithfully, for your constant prayers and encouragements. I pray that 2010 will be the year where our net finally grows and explodes! Where we will have to multiply at least 3 times! That's what I'm believing God for!

My brothers from other mothers (James, GabHo, David, YanHan, Andes & Ivan)

You guys are my best friends in the world! Would never trade you for any other!

Really wanna thank you for all the fun times, the retardeness, the chillout sessions, and everything else!

There's just too many to mention.

I really thank God for giving me such friends, you guys are amazing and I really hope that we'll stay as great friends forever!

Not forgetting my sistersss! (Annabelle, Evelyn, Lavette, Pamela, Wendy, EstherLim & Lynette)

You gals have been the most encouraging people towards me ever!

I've really never had gal-friends in sec sch cos I was quite the loser (haha).

And so it's been a really interesting & new experience getting to know you all during 2009!

I also thank God for all the times spent together and the constant blurness you gals have sometimes.

I also hope that we all stay as great friends forever!

Of course, who can forget region 3/4!

The best region of VFC everrrr!

It's a great sign that we've been growing, not just in numbers, but we're growing in the Lord too!

Hope that we'll all catch the vision of 2010, and grow so much that we'll have to push region 1/2 into the overflow sector! That would be so awesome!

And I haven't forgotten my friends from school (Aiman, Lohes, Haziqah, Baini & Ain)

You guys have been the best company to have in school.

It was really an experience getting to know you all better during the Hainan trip.

As well as playing poker together, all the hang outs.

The stupid situations.

Laughing at lecturers.

Doing lame stuff together.

It's been awesome!

To the brotherhood [We can't call ourselves brothers 4 anymore cos we have so many!]

(Nicholas, Jonger, Asri, ZhangYi, KangLun & Vincent)

Though we haven't been able to meet up as a whole group, just wanna thank you all for being there for me in secondary school. For all the laughs, the lan gaming, the movies, everyday after school outings.

I love you guys and you all will forever have a special place in my heart. God Bless!

Ahh who can forget my disciple, Jeremy Yap.

Just wanna say I can see God doing a work in your life, do continue to be faithful in attending services.

It's great seeing you grow so much in the Lord.

May you become a great man of God as you mature in Him in 2010.