All gone in a flash...

Yeah, so Friday, went to school for SIWM class, topic was on the YouTube phenomenon.
Was quite interesting, but once again it took away my sleep, for Fridays....
After that met up with David and went down to peninsular plaza to change strings.
David had some probs with his electric guitar so he accompanied me there to get it repaired.
I changed strings to some cheap coated strings, and the guy adjusted the action so low till there's a 'CLANG' sound everytime I strum the 'D' string real hard.
Went to David's house to check out his multi effects pedal, and jammed 3 songs on the spot without stopping.

Saturday, had my first ever tennis lesson!
But it was at an unearthly timing, 7am in the morning!
I was still in dreamland during the lesson.
After that fell right back asleep and awoke only when David and Ivan reached my house.
We jammed for about 2-3 hours, we even tried recording a sound but failed miserably.
After that KFC at compassvale and went home to "study/slack".

Today, had youth band practice after so long!
Was really looking forward to it but we only manage to do 2 songs.
But it was worth it.
Went home for lunch after morning service, headed to Yishun building to play WII. (Not world war 2)
And played cs on lan with JJ for awhile.
Met up with Ivan, Nicholas, Vincent and Zhang Yi at yishun MRT.
Couldn't find seats when we reached the fusion youth hub, so we had to settle for some crappy seats at the back with a very lousy view of the events.
Games were good, prizes were good, worship was good and last but not least the message was SIMPLY FANTASIC.
It really opened my eyes to the reality of life.
Wake up call...
I really wanna thank my best buds Nicholas, Vincent and Zhang Yi for taking time to come down for 180, really appreciate it, we should hang out and do something one of these days ya?

Poof! And the week is almost over!

So anyway, this week has been a bore...
Did nothing much but game and study, game > study of course.
Term tests are coming, and most are morning papers...
Going off to Vietnam after my last paper on Friday, which means you won't see me for net, edge and sunday service.
Right now there is something bothering me deeply, its about the course that I'm in.
Sure, the friends are great and the laughter is heart warming, but the academics are alien.
Until now I still haven't gotten a firm grasp of what each topic means.
For example, I found out today what a noob I am at programming.
The person helping me out was probably feeling frustrated at my puny knowledge of Java codes.
So I think to myself, if I pass my science O'levels, which definitely I will, I may consider changing course.
To mechanical engineering in Ngee Ann polytechnic.
I'm more of a practical person, theory just bores the crap outta me.
For instance, when I was learning guitar, I didn't care about the theory and focused on practice all the way, and through that, the theory became like my second nature...
Its the same for everything else.
All I have to do is practice and it'll be okay.
And mechanical engineering has math and physics!
My 2 favourite subjects in secondary school.
I failed science cos chem pulled me down.
But I think to myself, how can I leave my friends just like that?
Which decision is better, my future or my friends?

Anyway, events this week, nothing much, but I left my computer mouse in one of the labs yesterday and went back today to check and it was still there!
Saved me the trouble and $$$ to go buy a new one.

Net tomorrow, I'm teaching lesson as well as playing guitar, might be going to change guitar strings tomorrow after school.
Stressed...
Right now all I can take is a short breather this weekend.
Still have to prepare for net worship and net lesson.
Tennis lesson at 7am on SATURDAY!!!
Rawr...
Soccer cancelled...
Jamming with David and Ivan....
Youth band practice...
And 180 Event!!!

Time and Place Date: Sunday, November 30, 2008
Time: 6:00pm - 8:00pm
Location: Fusion Youth Hub
Street: 3 Yishun St 11
City/Town: Singapore, Singapore180 is our biggest event of the year!
Come down for dance competitions, music, drama, games, and prizes.
Ipod nano and digital camera to be won!
Pre-180 events start at 230pm. (wii games, express manicures and more!)
[Plagiarized from James' blog]

And went blog hopping today, found out that a pretty girl has caught his eye, an angel, he says.
The description kinda matches MY angel....
Gotta clear things out with him...
Although I don't think it'll be such a coincidence....
Have to play safe...

I sat next to you in the bus,
We were talking like good friends.
Something next to me distracted me for 2 seconds.
When I looked back, you disappeared.
Vanished, like a ghost.
Blah sometimes I really hate dreams.

10 facts about Arthur??

Hmm, how to go about doing this??

1. I love God
2. I love that girl
3. I love music
   
4. I love McDonalds
5. I love my friends
6. I want a new guitar!
7. I want to go to youth camp!
8. I want a GPA of 4!!!
9. I hate backstabbers!!
10. I want to be a guitarist for God!!

Do I have to tag 10 people??
Well, I would tag :

1. James Pek
2. Evie Ng
3. Esther Lim
4. Valerie Tan
5. Marcia Tan
6. JJ Seah
7. Nicholas Ng
8. Sheryl Ng
9. Naomi Soh
10. Yew Long Jie

Ok this list was random...
But whatever.
Haha

No life...

So today, made the same blunder I do EVERY monday, due to monday blues, I guess.
My class starts at 10am but I always forget and reach by 9am....
And I only realise it when I enter the lecture theater and see many unfamiliar faces.
So, with nothing better to do, I've decided to blog.

After reading others' blogs, I find that I am one who has the least 'life', as I'm always just slacking at home.
People go out, have fun even on school nights, and I truly envy their freedom.
I mean, even going out for dinner with friends would mean a lot, and I thank God for friends like David who asked me to join the guys to watch a movie on Friday.
But other than that, what am I doing?
Just wasting my youth staying home, and spending late nights playing games or doing assignments...
Its been a long time since I went to hang out with region 3/4 youth after edge or after morning service for a meal or something.
I've been rushing home the past few weeks after edge due to the fact that my parents need help in doing the housework.
Now that we've hired a new maid, I hope I'll be able to have more fun now.

So, cousins came down from Malaysia for the weekend, brought them to edge, went for bowling, and that's about it.
Due to this I've totally forgotten about one of my assignments, which is due in 2 hours...
Events coming up this week : Prayer meeting, net group, tennis lesson, jamming session with David and Ivan, and 180!
And all the best to the people from Ngee Ann poly and their outreach this coming Friday!
Do invite the contacts to 180! XD

Everybody sing like it's the last song you will ever sing.
Everybody live like it's the last day you will ever see.

Madagascar!

Ok, so I watched madagascar 2 today when I was supposed to be doing my SIWM blog...
But I needed a break, so i finally agreed to accompany the guys to watch it.
It was hilarious, and it really helped me de-stress and helped to keep my mind away from the upcoming stress period.
David's mind was distracted today, he only realised that we entered Burger King after sitting inside for 10 minutes.
He was like, "eh? I though they wanted to go ajisen ramen, why are we here?!"
And we had been inside chatting for almost 10mins before he said that.
The movie was hilarious, by my standards, I like the penguins, and the airplane take-off part.
And now, I'm just procrastinating my SIWM blog, and I have no mood to go for the tutorial tomorrow.
Its probably going to be a pain coming up with a URL for the blog, as well as a good title.
Really don't wanna do it, I wanna sleep!

PSLE results for my brother weren't exactly good news, and I do believe that results isn't everything, although parents always judge us based on results.
They always deny it, but deep in their hearts they just despise us because of our sucky academics.

And now, I just wish that I have someone to hold in my arms.
And all I want is for that person to be you.

Disturbed

So today I was feeling rather off....
Was thinking about how much I'm going to miss when everybody goes for youth camp...
The biggest event of the year, the event I've been looking forward to since the last youth camp, and I have to miss it...
Take a leave of absence?
I wouldn't mind, only that I'll miss my term tests when my GPA is already so low.
Parents will condemn that decision.
Other options?
Helicopter down everyday to attend the night sessions.
Too costly.
Leave a note and just sneak off...
Take a 5 day MC?
WHAT CAN I DO TO GET INTO YOUTH CAMP!!!
I'm desperate...
RAWR!
I'm going to be kept in suspense till the end of youth camp, and I'm gonna feel so left out when everyone's talking about it.
Should I sign up in faith and hope that they'll reschedule?
Argh....
This bites...
I really hate poly schedules.... Why do they have to be so 'special'???
When we're having holidays, others are having school or exams...
When we are having exams, others have holidays...
We're being isolated from the other half of the teenage community in Singapore and I'm not liking this one bit...
Youth camp youth camp...
Pray pray pray...
I want teleportation powers!

A friend?

Great, so now everyone knows about the EBR.

This week has been an awfully tiring week, with an average of only 4 hours of sleep per day.
OOPG lab test and C-maths class test this week, I'm so prepared for maths but not the least bit for programming.
Friday, came late for SIWM class, overslept once again.
Didn't do much in that lesson, should have skipped it.
It was CCN day, so we just checked out the different stalls set up.
Saturday, lazed around and went to edge, rushed home immediately after Jeremy Seaward said dismissed.
Today, K.O-ed for 5 hours straight and ended up missing evening service.
Oh yeah, and during pre-teens net, thank God Josephine taught the lesson...
I guess now I know what to expect, especially from Elliot.
Must be prepared with full fledged rebuttals to counter his questions.
Mass conversation on MSN with 3/4 people is fun, should do it more often, at least it takes the boredom out of my nights...

Parents complaining that I'm not studying enough.
I don't dare tell them that I stay till the wee hours of the morning to study.
In the day I'm helping out with housework, and in the night there's not much distractions...
Hope no one reads the book 'Conversations with God'
Don't read it.

5 years too late

Ok, I've been thinking alot lately, and usually I think about the mistakes I've made in my life so far.
I know, this kind of thing is what old people do when they're bored.
But I got too much time on the bus rides home, so I just tend to think.
And one case came to my mind which convicted me a lot.
______________________________________________________________________

(This space is reserved for a certain someone to see) :
We used to be friends, a long long time ago, back when I was still wearing shorts to school.
We sat together, we talked, we laughed, and we were good friends.
We bullied each other, did lame stuff and joked together.
The only thing was that you're a girl and I'm a guy.
I said some hurtful things in the heat of the moments, and you backed away.
And slowly, this friendship started to fade.
Gradually, we became strangers, not even a 'hi' or 'bye' whenever our paths crossed.
We became mere acquaintances who couldn't talk on level terms.
You're the smart one & I'm less intellectual.
You're the beautiful one but I'm the ugly one.
I soon felt that I didn't deserve to be your friend, and gave up trying.
This ruined relationship caused me to have made an subconscious vow, to never hurt a girl's feelings ever again.
And because of this scar, I find it hard to be friendly to other girls.
You were the one who I felt the most comfortable with.
What would you say if I told you that I once liked you, a lot.
How would you react?
I told myself and others that I would never like someone like you.
I lied.
And all that was on my mind then was you.
But soon you met other guys, better looking and smarter guys.
I wasn't jealous, I was just unworthy.
And now, the only thing I wanna say is,

I'm sorry

____________________________________________________________________

Very few people might know who I'm talking about.
Our clique, back then.
If any case any readers knows who I'm talking about, please don't reveal it.
Although I only believe just 2 persons excluding myself would know.
I just hope that she is able to read this somehow.

I did say that I liked you,
but now someone else has my heart.
Someone who doesn't even know she's met me.
Its painful.
I'm afraid that I might end up in another failed relationship.
That's why I dare not try.
One day, we'll see what unfolds.
One day...

Tiring week

Ok, this week has been by far the most tiring week of my life.
Been reaching home at almost 10pm everyday, and I probably only had less than 20 hours of sleep this whole week.
SIWM lessons are getting better.
Now we've gone on to blogging, which I enjoy as a school subject.
Hope to cover journalism in this module.
For my project I've decided to do a video on how people gain fame on the internet.
I'm going to be an example.
Time to borrow Brendan's video cam XD.
CMSK is worse than last term.
I would usually look forward to CMSK lessons, but this term I just dread it.
I like writing, but I hate having to follow a skeleton.
I just like writing random and no link stuff.
Had MacDonald's twice this week, and had subway 3 times.
$$$ being digested in my stomach.
Felt sick on Thursday and Friday, but still went to school for attendance.
Was still feeling really fatigued at net group but I still managed to lead worship pretty fine.
My voice was cracking up as usual.
Saturday was really bad!
I dragged myself out of bed just to go to help out at care and share.
And couldn't stop sneezing when I reached Punggol CC.
The air was really really bad there.
Went with Gabriels, Alan, Brother Hock Chee and his sons to Toa Payoh building to get the supplies for the goodie bags.
Imagine me lifting my own weight's worth of rice.
Back straining, so I gave up on the first sack.
After that headed back to Punggol CC to pack the stuff...
Sat in the scorching sun and did something like what they to in the factories.
Really pissed off and tired by then.
Went to Hougang mall for lunch, went to James' house to bathe and went down to SP to watch Kang Lun's dance performance.
Was a really good dance item, well worth my $10.
Very emotional dance choreography and mind blowing break dance techniques.
Kang Lun did really well, good job buddy.
Forgot to invite the guys to 180 thats happening on 30th November.
Will have more dance items to watch there I hope.
And, youth camp is a no go this year T-T
It's my term test week on the same week as youth camp.
If it was held in Singapore I might be able to go back and forth everyday.
But its in Malaysia!
Argh skip school skip school skip school skip school....

Barbeque?

So mum suggested a barbeque for my birthday.
But definitely not on a saturday or sunday.
Weekdays are not convenient as well.
There's net on Friday.
Sigh....
This week has been tiring.
CGS on monday and tuesday.
Margaret Seaward's messages were awesome.
Worship practice on Wednesday night.
Quite a small turnout.
And net tonight was good.
Boring post I know.
Sadly I don't have any pictures to upload.
Just hope I get my birthday wish.

Presents??

So mum asked me how I wanted to celebrate my birthday.
I told her its still quite far off.
She asked me to tell her so she could start planning now...
zzz.
What's up with suddenly being so interested in how I would celebrate my birthday?
I liked last year's 'celebration', because it was a rather quiet one.
Spent at mind cafe with the region's youths, although I think most of them didn't even know it was my birthday that day. (Haha)
But this year, my birthday falls on a Sunday.
Which probably means that I wouldn't be left alone unless I skip church.
I mean, I do like people to remember my birthday, gives me the sense that I'm still loved by someone.
But I dislike getting the attention from people.
Its been like this from the start.
Every time I feel that someone is staring at me, I'll always check my hair, my appearance to make sure that nothing is wrong with me and I check to see if there's anything stuck to my shirt.
So imagine having many eyes on me when the birthday song is going.
I'd feel uncomfortable.
Really.
No birthday song this year.
Please no.
I want a quiet birthday with my favourite girl in my favourite restaurant.
Hopefully by then I'll have mustered the courage to even talk to her, let alone have a meal alone with her.
Christmas...
Man I hope Christmas is quieter this year as well.
I guess after all the time living in this fast paced and noisy environment I wanna have some peace and quiet.
Maybe I should hide in some cave and try to find my inner self like what they do in those kung fu movies....
random random no link no link....
zzzzZZZZZ

HSM3...

Ok, so I watched this movie with SengKang net people today.
Woke up with a stiff neck and a twisted knee joint.
Sprained my ankle while walking on unlevel ground on the way to school today.
9am lessons...
SIWM class.
It was better than last week.
But assignment has started already... =(
After that I rushed down to Yio Chu Kang Mrt to pick up my brother to go to Dhoby Ghaut to meet the SK net.
Turns out we arrived too early, we reached at 2.40pm, waited till 3pm but still no one in sight.
Next time we gotta come half an hour late to be 'on time'.
Anyway, our overall net had 4 new people, who came from CW to the youth.
3 of them joined Johnathon's side and 1 joined Esther's side.
Had a short net at Plaza Sing's foodcourt.
After which came games like uno, jenga, taiti (however you spell it), murderer, etc.
I brought my laptop along so I managed to play PES for a short while before my battery ran out.
After that, the movie!
I was looking forward to it, mainly because I've watched the first 2 movies and enjoyed it quite a bit.
But there was something that put me off, it was the fact that there were too many songs in the movie.
I know its supposed to be a musical, but it was just an overkill of songs...
The songs had good lyrics, but the music arrangements just sucked...
I still prefer 'Camp Rock'.
Anyway, the character I liked the most was a new guy, Jimmie 'The Rocket' Zara.
Super cool guy, jokerish and he's probably gonna star in the rumoured 'High School Musical 4'
If he's the main character then I'm so gonna look forward to the fourth movie of HSM.