Presents??

So mum asked me how I wanted to celebrate my birthday.
I told her its still quite far off.
She asked me to tell her so she could start planning now...
zzz.
What's up with suddenly being so interested in how I would celebrate my birthday?
I liked last year's 'celebration', because it was a rather quiet one.
Spent at mind cafe with the region's youths, although I think most of them didn't even know it was my birthday that day. (Haha)
But this year, my birthday falls on a Sunday.
Which probably means that I wouldn't be left alone unless I skip church.
I mean, I do like people to remember my birthday, gives me the sense that I'm still loved by someone.
But I dislike getting the attention from people.
Its been like this from the start.
Every time I feel that someone is staring at me, I'll always check my hair, my appearance to make sure that nothing is wrong with me and I check to see if there's anything stuck to my shirt.
So imagine having many eyes on me when the birthday song is going.
I'd feel uncomfortable.
Really.
No birthday song this year.
Please no.
I want a quiet birthday with my favourite girl in my favourite restaurant.
Hopefully by then I'll have mustered the courage to even talk to her, let alone have a meal alone with her.
Christmas...
Man I hope Christmas is quieter this year as well.
I guess after all the time living in this fast paced and noisy environment I wanna have some peace and quiet.
Maybe I should hide in some cave and try to find my inner self like what they do in those kung fu movies....
random random no link no link....
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